DISCLAIMER: (Borrowed in part from Jay, with her permission) The Gundam Universe of Mobile Suit Gundam Wing is © Sotsu Agency, Sunrise, ANB, and Bandai America, Inc. Characters, places, timeline and other elements of the Gundam Wing series are the property of said organizations, and I do not profess to own them. The original material herein is © the author and not considered public domain. Please don't sue or plagiarize. I'm in a perpetually non-prosperous state and all spare change usually goes into coffee or bags of oats.

PAIRINGS: R+1, 2x1 WARNINGS: Angst, sap, OOC Heero, yaoi, bad language, pushy (but nice) Relena, lots of coffee drinking, lime. FEEDBACK: But of course! NOTE: This fic idea came to me after reading about a fic contest that was posted to the lists a couple of weeks ago. If I can finish it, I'll enter it, but anyway, it was a contest where you had to write based on a provided idea, and the idea I chose is called "Heero, the not-so-perfect soldier," and the point of it is supposed to be Heero learning to deal with his emotions after J removed a controlling computer chip from his brain. In my fic, it is after the Eve War, and all the scientists are alive and well.

by Shira

Lying back on the bed, Heero was exhausted from the energy he’d expended in the shower. Though the episode lasted less than a half hour, including the washing of Duo’s hair, they had both been so tense...so emotionally and sexually charged, that every ounce of energy had been spent in the excitement. Sexual gratification with another person was a tiring thing, he now realized, but it was worth every second, especially when it was with that special person that could make you feel oh-so-good. The way Duo makes me feel. The way Duo made him feel.

“So what did you think?” Duo asked, lying next to Heero. They were in Duo’s bedroom, having both flopped down on the bed to relax after their shower. Duo’s hair was wrapped in a thick, fluffy towel. They lay naked on the bed, both looking up at the ceiling. The only thing missing from the scene was a couple of cigarettes, except for the fact that neither smoked.

“Mmm,” Heero answered, a smile appearing on his face. He closed his eyes and let his body become one with the mattress.

Duo smirked. “That’s what I thought you’d say.”

“You do an awful lot of thinking about what I’m going to say, don’t you?”

“Well, you’re predictable, that’s all.”

“Predictable?” Heero asked.

“Heero, you’ve always been predictable. Since I first met you.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Uh huh. I never said that was a bad thing either, now. Just that I know you, probably better than you think I do.”

“How do you know me so well then?”

“I’ve studied you, Heero, because I wanted to find whatever way I could to try to be with you.” Duo blushed.

Heero smiled, embarrassed.


“I just can’t believe you’ve been interested in me all this time.”

“I can’t believe I finally got through to you.”

They both laughed quietly.

“I’m glad you did. Thanks for being so persistent.”

“Hey, I’ve figured out that getting what you want is a good thing!” He smiled, and then chuckled.


“Oh nothing.”

“It’s something. What?”

Blushing, Duo said, “Today is the first time I’ve ever seen you completely nude. Not that spandex leaves a lot to the imagination but... you’ve matured since those days, let’s put it that way!”

Heero turned bright red. “And were you disappointed?”

“Not in the slightest.” Duo’s mischievous smirk was back and he let his eyes close as his mind wandered into fantasy. “Not in the slightest.”

“I could say the same, but I’ve seen you naked before, so I already knew what I was getting.” Heero laughed, acknowledging the number of times he’d patched Duo up after a bad mission or getting him out of Oz captivity and having to tend his many wounds. Then for a few minutes they just lay thinking about the other’s attractiveness.

“So...” Heero began, “...where do we go from here?”

“Wherever you want to go. Whatever floats your boat, yanno?”

“Where do you want this to go?”

Sighing, Duo said, “This isn’t just about me, Heero.”

“I know it isn’t. But I trust you. Where do you want to lead me?”


“I promise I’m in it for myself, too. I’m not just saying it because I know you want me to. I want this. I realized a little while ago that I really, really want this, just like you do. I just need to be lead a little bit, that’s all. Because I’m just learning about life, you know. I trust you to do that.”

A little smile appeared on Duo’s lips. “Well, for starters...”


“I’d like it if you would move into this bedroom with me. That is, only if you want to do that.”

Heero smiled and opened his eyes to stare at the ceiling once more. “I’d like that.”




They were quiet for a few minutes as they both contemplated.

“What else?”

After a few seconds, Duo said, “Nothing else. That’s it.”

“That’s it?”

“If you feel the way I do, then that’s it. The rest will happen on its own.”

“Oh... OK.”

“I just want to be able to lie here with you next to me at night.”

“Like we’re doing now.” Heero answered as he let his heavy eyelids close again.

“Just like we’re doing now.” Duo turned his head to look over at Heero, who was quickly passing out and into a quiet slumber after the afternoon’s activities. Seeing his friend so relaxed, Duo decided a nap probably wasn’t a bad idea. His leg was sore again, and he suddenly felt very drained as well, so he let sleep start to claim him, confident that when they woke up, they’d both be looking at the world in a new way. Then letting his eyes close, he drifted off into sweet dream-filled slumber.

Awaking momentarily, Heero looked over at Duo’s still form beside him, and he admired him, bringing a smile once more to his lips. Thanks, Duo, for sticking by me. I owe a lot to you, after all these years. Chip or no chip, you’re the one who has helped me feel the most human out of anybody. Thanks for setting me free from myself. Heero yawned. For the first time in my life, you’ve made me happy to be who I am, and I will always appreciate that. Rolling over onto his side, Heero draped his arm over Duo’s stomach, and within seconds he was resting soundly again.


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