Another Version of Events
by Karan Seraph
"I have them all too", Heero said and showed Duo the discs in cases
and set box, which he had just taken from one of the plastic crates
their belongings were stored in. They had unpacked a lot into the
rooms they used, but here were still other things that had not found
a home or were awaiting completion of the house, like their combined
collection of media. Only some of the discs had made it onto the
living room shelves thus far.
Duo grinned and shifted uneasily as he showed his set of discs in
slightly less legitimate or pristine state. "Downloaded and burned."
He was naked, but for bondage gear, and though Heero had seen him
naked, and even seen Duo move about former residences naked, it
seemed clear to him that Duo was not comfortable with being naked
while involved in such activity that was unrelated to sex, sleeping
or hygiene and grooming. Or perhaps he was uncomfortable with being
naked because Heero said he should be and in a place where they
could hear the evidence of many men armed with hammers and nail guns.
Heero shook his head at the fidgeting. He was in as risky a
position. He was wearing a frilly dress, outfit complete with bunny
ears and tail, thigh-high stockings with attached satin bows, lace
gloves and white patent leather maryjanes. The shoes had been rather
difficult to find and though Heero thought almost nothing of
spending money to indulge sexual fantasies, that small
margin 'almost' allowed was currently pestering him to come up with
some other costume ideas that he could wear the same shoes with.
"Oh, except Animatrix, it was a download too, but a paid legitimate
one." Duo lifted the fourth disc from the box. "So, your copies or
"Are they good copies?"
"The video itself isn't bootleg, it's just the licensing's been
"Then we can watch yours and put mine of the shelf for show."
"You did watch yours?"
"Oh yes, many times. When I was a child, there was often something
to be done, a chore, or packing bags or… but sometimes there was
nothing to do, but wait for orders."
"Yeah. We had some moments like that, huh? Same with the time I was
with the Sweepers. There were times when every part of the ship you
were living out of had been checked over twice and there was no new
deal to make or wreckage to sweep. I read a lot."
Heero smiled. "You are somewhat self-educated. The method agrees
with you. I read fiction later, but when I was with Lowe still,
younger, I watched movies. I think, that is probably what I did when
I was with Karen."
"I don't even want to know", Duo said, as if sick. He already knew,
but he really meant, Heero was certain, that he did not want to hear
that the prostitute had sat the neighborhood assassin's adopted son
in front of a monitor while she went to service the soldiers of the
occupying forces, perhaps free of charge and at the risk of arrest
should she fail to please.
Heero shrugged. "I have all of these memorized, though, I think
there are levels I never understood. There are so many devices,
metaphor and symbolism and allusion. I understand the references to
Alice in Wonderland…"
"How far down does the rabbithole go?"
"Yes. I think the ending is reminiscent of Aurthurian myth, but I do
not actually know much about Arthur legends."
"Yeah, it is, it is, but it could also be like other things."
"They are deep." He saw Duo put the first disc in the most
convenient compatible device and port that to the monitor. They had
a lot of devices and Heero thought one day, if they were still
together, they might come upon the perfect method of arranging them
all for use. "Did you finish reading Burroughs?"
"Yeah, did you?"
"I did not actually finish my book."
"Oh?" The menus came up and Duo used the remote to start the movie.
Heero rose and knelt again on the couch. "If it is important to you,
I could finish. I suppose I just got involved with other things and
had not made it a high priority on my lists."
"No big deal." Duo sat on the couch beside Heero, toyed with his
"It's not actually uncomfortable?"
"No, no. It's fine. I like wearing it."
"There was a leash. Have you seen it recently?"
"Yeah, it was in the box with the stuff I got to keep. Do we need
it? Oh! I went shopping!"
Heero had been wondering if Duo would offer to show him what was in
the bags all over the entryway or he would have to ask to see. Heero
nodded emphatically. "Show me! It is OK if we talk during the movie?"
"We've both seen these so many times, I just thought it would be
kewl to watch them together. I am all for doing other things while
"I will just hop into the bedroom and get the leash, if you get the
"Uh, you'll really hop?"
Heero considered it for a moment, shrugged and then nodded. He was
willing to hop. Heero knew Duo loved him, but all those Stanford
students might start to look tempting. Heero thought it best he do
whatever he could to make certain Duo knew there was always
something more interesting waiting at home. And, he liked seeing
Duo's eyes look at him when he was really turned on.
Heero got up from the couch and made many small hops toward the
bedroom. "Get the camera too", Duo squeaked. Heero turned and
twitched his nose as he looked over his shoulder at Duo. He loved
that look in Duo's eyes.
Heero returned to the couch first, being he had walked on the way
back and Duo was struggling not to feel aroused to the point that he
had a hard on. It was cute, though Heero knew he should never say
that aloud and if he heard Duo say it about him, he would be
angry. 'Cuteness' should not go along with erections.
Duo brought the shopping bags containing sex toys, implements of
torture and such to the couch and sank down. Heero passed the camera
to him. "Just let it happen", he said and moved his gaze to Duo's
"Just capture the photo, and then I want you to tell me all about
how you feel." Heero stepped away from the couch, reached beneath
the back of his skirt to feel that the tail was in place and then
bent forward from his hips. He twisted his upper body such that he
could look back around his legs to Duo, on the couch.
Duo gasped and bit his lip and then lifted the camera to his right
eye to use the viewfinder. "You could give straight boys nosebleeds!"
Heero laughed and Duo snapped a second photo, likely capturing the
laugh. "Nosebleeds?" Heero asked as he straightened and stretched.
"Yeah, rock hard, blood-dark and dripping hard-ons too, but I mean
like real nosebleeds, blood vessels popping in the brain from
overload and everything!"
"Do not have an aneurism on me."
Duo smiled and shook his head as Heero sat in his lap. He draped his
arms over Duo's shoulder's loosely and settled down to watch Duo's
eyes widen. "Oh god!" Duo cried and just melted.
Heero smiled at him. "Panties and tail are made of real rabbit fur."
"Is it totally wrong to be turned on the feeling of fur on my dick?"
Heero shook his head. "Depends who is wearing the fur."
"Have you felt…?"
Heero nodded. "So, why were you trying to fight it? This is good."
"So good." Duo's hands grasped Heero's thighs. "How much do real
rabbit fur panties cost?"
"Does not matter. You want me to go down on you, or you want to fuck
me, or shall I just give you more of this?"
"Ah, back off a little. I don't… I mean, fuck. I wasn't embarrassed
to be turned on! I've been wanting to fuck you since I got out of
the shower, no, since last night, but…if I do it, that's it. I like
the costume. I wanted to play around, just a little while."
"What do you mean?"
"The costume rule. If I fuck you now, I'll come so fast and then it
will be over, and…"
Heero climbed off of Duo's lap and sat beside him. Duo panted
breaths and cursed under his breath. "I never made a clear rule
except to tell you that when you saw me in the femmy costumes it
meant I would be receptive to anal penetration, did I?"
"I-I guess you didn't. But…"
"So, I can make the rule now. The rule is: when you see me in the
femmy costume, that's the signal that I am in the mood to be
receptive, and until I put on something else, that stands as true.
If I am still in the costume, or if I was in the costume but sexual
activity led to removing it and I have not yet put on my regular
clothing, then I am still in that mood. Maybe sometimes it will be a
one-act thing, but maybe other times I would be willing to play this
game longer. Maybe, if you make me like it, you can have my ass and
then have my ass again later. Of course, if you are getting to do it
twice, I probably would not like it so rough the second time, though
we both know I prefer it that way by default. I might still be
receptive, but with few exceptions, I have done it to you the way
"Uh… of course! Heero, that's right, damn few exceptions. You're a
great lover. Seriously. You don't have to tell me, I wouldn't hurt
you. The costume doesn't mean I can take advantage of you in any
Heero nodded. "I know", he said seriously, "I just like to be sure
that we understand. I only wanted to say it, officially."
"Yeah, that's good. I can appreciate that."
Heero rolled his shoulders and then turned to look at Duo again, and
smiled. "Do you want to try now, or do something else?"
"Hey, ya think you want to blow me? You can just do it quick if you
Heero licked his lips. "I watched some porn while you were away. I
would love to blow you, but I promise, I will be doing my best not
to be quick. I want to try what I saw, see if I can do it better
"It was perfect before, I mean, you were. You were good at it, Oh
Heero was already kneeling on the floor and leaning toward Duo,
between his legs. He had confidence in his ability to bring Duo off
with oral stimulation, but after watching that movie, Heero was
motivated to do even better.
He listened eagerly for the sounds Duo made: "Ah, ah, ah, ha ha,"
audible swallow, "Heero!"
"Ha, huh, ha, ah."
Heero reached for the information, fairly confident in this ability
as well. It came, the link with Duo's mind, the data, what he felt.
Heero thought this was like masturbating, in the sense that one felt
at once what it was to do and to be did, and thus one knew every
moment, without having to ask or wait, how their actions brought
physical response and had a clear vision of how results could be
improved. He knew now if his actions felt too hard, light, fast,
slow, sharp, or dry to Duo. He knew if Duo was close to climax.
Heero knew, so he could avoid it.
"Aaah, ahhh, no, don't, don't stop!"
"Breathe. It's OK. I'll make you come, eventually."
"Oh, God, just…"
"Sssh, I will."
Duo had only asked Heero to blow him, but Heero made it last as long
as he could, until he knew his jaw was going to ache. He was
finished in good time to see the lobby disintegrate in Bullet Time,
which was his favorite scene.
He liked many things about the movie, including that it held some
nostalgic value only because he had seen it many times as a child,
but he loved seeing Neo and Trinity load up with weapons and walk
into that lobby… and the wire stunts. And the guns. Heero greatly
disliked killing, he knew from experience, but he rather liked
gunshots and explosions and resisting the kickback when he had
pulled the trigger.
A gun made him feel safe and powerful. One of the better and more
frightening things about Duo was that he made Heero feel he did not
need a gun.
Still, it was thoroughly enjoyable to lie on the couch alongside
Duo, cheek pressed to his chest, hand on the leash attached to his
collar, and see that lobby destroyed.
"You are missing the best part."
"I'm not asleep. I was just resting."
"Go get me a cold pack from the freezer."
"My jaw hurts. We keep some gel packs in the freezer so they will
always be cold when we need them."
"Guess you found the place for those, though it makes sense." Duo
slipped from beneath Heero and stood beside the couch. Heero loosed
the leash just as it went taut and lifted his head to watch Duo walk
to the kitchen.
Heero sat up then, turning to watch the monitor in the corner. When
Duo returned, he climbed over the bags in front of the couch and sat
beside Heero. The rings and bells on his bondage gear jingled as he
dropped. Heero took the cold gel pack from Duo and lifted it to his
jaw, flexing the pack so that it touched both sides of his face.
"This is like the part where it's obvious Neo's the One", Duo said.
"Yes. At least, he surpasses Morpheus' ability. I do not think it is
an official sort of thing until he dies and comes back to life
"I have read a lot of theories about the movies;" Heero said, "it
would seem the concept of the One and the escape from the prison for
the mind are Gnostic, but yes, there is a lot of Christian and also
Buddhist influence in the Trilogy. I know, because I have read about
it, and I understand what is happening in the movies because I have
just seen them so many times and reasoned out the order of events
and the implications of all the dialogue given, but I still do not
always recognize the symbolism or allusion."
"But the movies are good, even if you only understand them on one
"True. It is good and acceptable to have that surface understanding,
but I am aware that a lot more can be read into the stories and the
visuals. Apparently, a lot of the visuals are parallels to other
works of art or movies made before. I do not really know that much
about American Film History."
"They have classes", Duo said. "This thing with the helicopter, all
of it, it's just impressive any way you look at it."
"Can you pilot a chopper?"
"Yeah, but I haven't had to many times. Don't know if I could dodge
bullets, but I think…vI probably could make the bullets not hit me."
"Neo has not thought of that yet. It is a virtual world, and so
everything only is as real as the mind makes it. You see, that's
what they told him when he asked what happens if you die in there.
They said you die in the real world 'because your mind makes it
real', but then that potential told him 'there is no spoon', and he
is going to understand, that he can do whatever he believes he can
do. He does not have to understand how, he just has to know that he
will do it, and he will. He is only limited by what he can believe,
and at times, especially in this first movie, that is what limits
"But then, after a while, it's what enables him to do seeming
"Yes. He understands that you do not bend the spoon, you remember
there is no spoon."
"That's kinda weird, like one hand clapping or something. It's like
I get it, but I don't know if I could get it…"
"How do you change the channels without the remote?"
"I know how the device works."
"Oh. You are limiting yourself." Heero turned and looked at Duo
seriously. "Duo, there is no spoon."
"Yeah…" He sighed. "I don't know how you even do what you do."
"There are theories about it, sensitivity to electromagnetic
properties of brain waves and such, but I do not think about it.
Master Yoda said it also. 'there is no try' and 'always you
question'. I think, there are certain things in life that work
better if you do not wonder how they work but simply do them. It is
not only 'magical' power. I mean, sometimes, a person without
training can do some impressive feat of strength, like lift a car
off a body to drag them out or something…"
"That's all adrenaline and endorphins and such."
"That does play a part, but why did the body produce those chemicals
at that time? They were needed, and that need is perceived by the
brain. Also, people who believe they will recover often do recover
more quickly or fully than those who fear they may not recover. The
brain, or the mind… it really is something humans do not fully
understand. It really seems, if you believe…" Heero paused for a
moment and just watched the movie.
Trinity knew Neo was going to be left behind, but it was too late to
do anything except trust he could take care of himself.
"It is like ZERO. If you had a clear vision of your goal, if you had
determination and belief that you could accomplish a goal, you could…
but ZERO was a crutch. I think that people can do those impressive
things without machines. Machines are very useful and I like them,
but humans are very impressive."
"But you are special."
"So are you. I am not so special. I am strong because I trained my
body under simulated high gravity. I need to work to keep the
strength, I was probably stronger then than I am now. And maybe many
people can do the other things I can do, and we just do not know."
"But, Heero, you know. They can test for it. We're different."
"Yes, but human. In the future, we might all be like this. Maybe it
just makes it easier… but probably, there are people with no new
genome and they can do miraculous things."
"But how can it really just be as simple as believing it can happen?
How does that work? You just decide you can do something and you'll
be able to? If that were true, why doesn't everyone just read minds
or fly or whatever?"
Heero laughed. "I do not know if we can fly, but…" Heero
concentrated for a moment, "You know there are many people who
believe a monk levitated and if you stopped wondering how the
miracles happened or whether the documentation of saints in history
has been valid maybe you could keep your feet from touching the
Duo's expression said he had been thinking about saints. "I could
walk on water?"
"Well, the ratio of weight to surface are would have…" Heero
stopped. He frowned, aware that his forehead wrinkled just
slightly. "I am sorry. Sometimes I do it too. I should have
said 'yes'. If you could do it, then you could do it over water as
well. I should have said 'yes'."
"Are you certain it works better if you do not know how?"
"I am not perfect or an expert, Duo, I was only speaking from my own
experience and knowledge."
"Maybe your way is not my way. Maybe I could do it better if I
understood the science of how it could, in theory, be done. I would
just have to know that however the feat could be accomplished in
theory, the last step would always be willing those conditions so.
It is impressive enough to be able to convince myself of that! That
just willing the conditions so will make it so!"
Heero nodded slowly.
"Could I read minds?"
"I do not know, but if you could, doubting would not be the way to
ever accomplish it. If you are asking me to be entirely logical,
then perhaps it may be that people have metaphysical aptitudes as
they have physical aptitude. Some builds are better for certain
types of athletics or sports and it will be easier for those people
to be good at those things. Another person might find a way to be
good, but they will have to work more for it. Maybe it is like that.
Maybe something makes me have an aptitude for…" Heero looked up to
Duo, "It is always more information related, is it not? And you, the
moving and manipulation of devices, it is much more mechanical."
"Yeah. Yeah, it is. Huh? And that's kinda your expertise otherwise."
"You think it is 'trite' when she kisses him and he comes back to
"Nah, don't really. A kiss like that is from another type of deeply
symbolic and metaphorical work. Faerie tales say a lot about coming
of age and sex and fears associated with those things, but anyway,
the kiss that wakens is like always the metaphor for sexual
awakening. But, it is awakening, and 'awakening' is another way of
saying 'becoming enlightened', but the waking usage fits here,
because of the 'dream world' and 'Morpheus' references they have
"The first thing she says to him in the movie, in text through the
computer, is 'wake up, Neo.'"
"Exactly, so it's entirely fitting she does the thing with the kiss.
The dialogue is important too, because, as we know, it is very
important what you believe to be possible, and she believes he is
the One and she believes she loves him. It's not 'trite' at all.
It's pretty brilliant. If you heard it called that, you were
probably reading something written by a guy who only watches action
movies or something."
"Not a romantic?" Heero smiled.
"No." Duo chuckled a laugh. "I watch action movies, but I also like
"I like faerie tales too", Heero said. "even if they have girls in
"Those things could happen to anyone, girl or boy. Sometimes maybe a
girl rescues a boy, and maybe sometimes a boy rescues a boy."
"Maybe sometimes a girl rescues a girl?"
Heero laughed. "Should we watch Animatrix now, or after the others?"
"Where do you think it fits?"
"I think some before the first movie, but which would spoil the
movie, but others should be watched before Reloaded, because then it
would just be annoying to learn how the Kid was freed after you
already saw he was free. We should watch it now, and then Reloaded
and then Revolutions."
"That was the same kid? The one that is always pestering Neo and
becomes the ammo runner?"
"Yes. Did you not realize that?"
"Guess not, just thought them separate occasions…"
"It is the same 'Kid'", Heero said authoritatively. "Did you know
there was a game?"
Duo shook his head.
"There was more than one, but I have not found a disc for the online
game, though I know someone who runs an unofficial server. I have an
emulator for the first game, but I also have the disc, and now, I
also have the console to play it. You can be Niobe."
"The game, Enter the Matrix, also reveals more of the plot. I think
Animatrix helps one to understand the point of view of the Machines
better. Smith is not important to Animatrix and their origins, but
after I saw Animatrix a few times, I understood how Smith was very
important. He was not just a villain. He had a very important role
other than just the usual villain of plot convenience. He was almost
the same as Neo, like to the Machines what Neo was to the Humans.
Everything that happened with him was relevant, so that his end
could achieve what it achieved."
"You watched these a lot."
"A lot", Heero agreed.
Duo walked to the machine, removed the disc and then inserted the
"Last Flight of the Osiris is also fairly relevant to the main plot
of the Movies."
"You just need to know that they are the ones that sent the
information that they have at the beginning of Reloaded?"
"Mainly. It and Enter the Matrix sort of fit between the movies. You
can see time has passed at the beginning."
"We still have not gone through your purchases."
"Yeah, but don't distract me too much, anime is my thing."
"Heero looked at the bags. There seemed a lot. "How much did you
spend? Only the cash card I gave you?"
"A little bit more, but mostly what you gave me. They gave me a
discount, because I'm me."
"They had seen the Magazine interview and when I walked into the
shop the employees recognized me. They actually applauded. I'm still
not sure for what exactly, but I didn't complain about getting a
discount." He turned from the monitor to grin at Heero.
"So, when you purchased all of this, they knew who you were, and who
you were with, and what you did?"
Duo shrugged and watched the screen.
Heero took the first item that his fingers touched from the nearest
bag. It was the cat they had seen online.
"Aw, ya gotta try that for size. They said I could return it if it
wasn't right for you. They're like swords, ya know? The balance and
proportion has to be right for the one who will wield it."
Heero smiled. Duo had hardly looked away from the screen, but he
knew what Heero had found. Heero put his right index finger beneath
the handle, just where the thongs fell, and then he released the
handle from his left hand. The cat wobbled and then balanced. He
laughed softly; cat's were known for balance. "Nyaa", he said and
then leaned toward Duo to lick his face.
Duo laughed, not turning from the monitor. "You know how to use
"Not really, but I will do some reading and practice on my own so I
can learn for you."
"Good. There are some research materials in the bags there; I bought
those with my money."
"Really? Heero leaned down and rifled through the bags and found
some magazines and discs and one coffee table style book. "You did
not have to buy all this. You could have used my money."
"Nope! I spent all your money on gifts for me!"
Those would all be for Heero to use as well. "Maybe they read
between the lines. The part about 'roles' and 'therapy' was left in,
though they did some editing for length."
"Who? The interview? I noticed. I was glad actually. They took out
the parts where I sounded most goofy or needy and doubted how I
would sound in the final version."
"The people at the store where you shopped. Maybe they read between
the lines and that is why they applauded. Maybe they liked that you
let the world know how you were."
"How we are."
"Yes. That is true. How we are, together."
"Most of this is eye candy."
"You like eye candy. Would you exploit access to a virtual reality
construct to play around with your…partner?"
"I think 'partner' is OK, Heero", Duo said levelly. "I'd use it even
if I could say 'spouse' or 'husband', I'd use it instead
of 'boyfriend', because seriously, that can sound kinda trivial."
"I think you have used it."
"Works for us in a lot of ways, I mean, we aren't all buddy cop now,
but we have worked together like that in the past, so it applies in
that respect as well."
"Hai, hai, but if you had access to virtual reality, would you spend
time inside with your partner? Not training?"
"Seriously? I don't think I would. We have a yard, Heero. I'd much
rather run around in the real world."
"Aa, but if you did not have a yard? If no one had a yard? If you
were homeless and living in a run down Colony floating in space?"
"Hell yes! In that case, I'd go in any time I had a chance. Probably
program in blue skies and wonder if I ever got the color right."
"They probably starved for green as well."
"Yeah. I've known that. Starving for color. Really. It's kinda weird
how people look at you when they are starving for color, like if you
have pretty eyes or hair, especially if they are colors that most
people around you don't have."
Duo's pretty eyes and hair were among his best features, even in
Heero's thinking, and he did not currently starve for color, which
was a very real and disturbing thing in the Colonies. In Duo's
Colony, they did not even have the Big Blue Ball in the sky to look
at, because it was always behind the Moon, which they got to see in
the opposite phase from everyone else. So much metal and lunar
concrete. And in Duo's Colony, the majority of the population had
shades of brown skin, brown hair and brown eyes. There was a rainbow
of browns, from nearly yellow to nearly black, but still…they
starved for color. A girl with green or grey eyes would have drawn a
lot of attention.
Duo's eyes were heaven in stained glass.
Heero knew, he had stopped trying not to do it, and so he just knew.
Sometimes Duo had worn sunglasses at home, and sometimes he had
forgotten why he was wearing them and removed them to better look at
something, and then someone would see his eyes.
Heero closed his eyes, removed the fur panties, and climbed into
Duo's lap, in that order. He lifted his hands to feel for the
position of Duo's face, and then kissed him. There was a moment in
which Duo seemed in his tension and posture as if he would tell
Heero he really would rather watch the video, but it passed.
They were totally making out, and Duo did not even know why. He
deserved it, Heero thought. He deserved to be absolutely cherished.
But this kiss was not done for pity's sake. Heero did it because he
was very aware at the moment that he absolutely cherished Duo.
Duo's hands slipped under the skirt and Heero felt that there was
something Duo preferred over anime. He felt justified in this when
Duo fingered his asshole.
"Do me", Heero said. "Fuck me. Fuck me hard."
There was another moment of doubt, when Duo did not answer or move,
and only continued kissing Heero in the same way he had been, but
then approximately seventeen seconds later, Heero's back was on the
couch cushions and Duo was leaning over him, not quite grinning, but
definitely smiling, as he looked at Heero's face.
Heero had learned quickly that he wanted this. That first time he
had put on the schoolgirl costume, just for Duo, because he
remembered Duo's reaction to the joke about keeping him interested,
Heero had seen this look on Duo's face. It made him feel like he was
falling to earth and crashing into the ocean. He had done that at
least twice; it was freeing and devastating at the same time.
Heero trembled. Tomorrow this would probably all be out of his
system, purged by a night of being about as femmy and submissive as
he was ever going to get and demanding to be fucked. Right now, he
wanted Duo's dick in him.
It was good, he thought, the way it was good that there was evil in
the world or pain in life. It made one appreciate their opposites.
Tomorrow he was going to really enjoy fucking Duo, and after today,
Duo was going to be glad he was a self professed bottom boy. This
would be good, and tomorrow, that would be good too.
There probably were people who always did things in one way, but
Heero thought it was good to go the other way once in a while, so
you could appreciate what you had.
The dress was pure kink, but Heero cross-dressed every day, Duo
would probably hate it. This way, Heero showed him something special
and rare and Duo could still call him Fashion Plate as he
appreciated Heero's body in perfectly masculine garments.
But that look, that heated gaze, to try to be romance novel about
it, would make it all worthwhile, even without the other sound
reasons to end up pinned to the couch in a dress and stockings
begging Duo to fuck him.
"I bought some lube", Duo said quietly.
"Good. We were nearly out."
"I so fuckin' love you!"
When Duo fucked him, it was everything Heero had wanted it to be. He
had not gone completely out of body and forgotten to breathe, but
that was because he was leaning to process these feelings without
overload. In a lot of ways, his capacity had grown. His subconscious
had cataloged all the sounds Duo had made while his consciousness
had been reduced to registering nothing but pleasure. He had
actually cum in Japanese; he was aware of that.
It had been so perfectly rough. So perfectly freeing and devastating
at the same time. Heero was certain he was still chemically off
balance, he could laugh maniacally or burst into tears at any
moment. Like having stabilizers shot off a fighter maybe…
Duo had exhausted himself in giving Heero what he wanted. He lay
heavily atop Heero's body, his breath deep and heavy at Heero's
right ear. His right hand had settled awkwardly into Heero's left
armpit. And somehow Heero had missed, in all the many sensations,
the fact that Duo's dick was still inside his ass. It did not seem
it was hard, in fact Heero was sure it could not be, and it was not
sitting very deep, but it was there, like it had just stopped
instead of slipping all the way out.
Heero thought it would slip if he moved. He did not want Duo to
think he was just pushing him out on purpose, but not trying to
move, consciously, only made him twitch. Heero felt Duo's dick slip
from him, and he laughed.
Heero thought he felt Duo's body shake with silent laughter, but
truthfully it was difficult to distinguish the movement from the
movement his own laughter caused.
"Usually, you only laugh like that when blowing shit up."
"I killed you."
That time, Heero was sure Duo was laughing.
Duo settled and then rested for several minutes. He lifted his head
then and suggested they get cleaned up a bit and get some lunch
before watching Reloaded. Heero agreed, but suggested robes for
traveling to the bathroom. Duo's was red, satin and stolen from a
hotel. Heero's was white, fluffy and complimentary from a high
They washed up, made sandwiches and instant coffee and returned to
the living room. Heero had removed the dress, ears and tail, and so
he was wearing nothing beneath the robe and only stockings and shiny
white shoes otherwise. Duo was still dressed only in bondage gear
and a robe, and Heero allowed the robe, especially as they were
eating. It sometimes seemed a tempting idea to eat while naked, but
dealing with picking crumbs from pubic hair was just really
distasteful. Heero started Reloaded and they ate their sandwiches
and drank coffee from their mugs as they sat on the couch and
Heero said that Reloaded, the middle movie in the trilogy, had taken
him longest to understand. Some of it seemed to make more sense
after seeing Revolutions.
"I kinda thought Revolutions would be more confusing, all that stuff
with the train station."
"You should have known that one."
"Because you know about limbo and ascents into Hell an such.
Revolutions was full of such things. And Reincarnation possibly."
"I was a bit confused, because Sati means the self immolation, a
sacrifice, but it's also the name of an Egyptian archer goddess who
had no special connections with 'sacrifice'."
"Then you know sacrifice is part of it."
"Of course. He had to learn that it was necessary to stop fighting
and surrender, even if it meant he died…for the good of everyone.
That movie was all about sacrifice."
"This one is more about love."
"Yeah, I kinda agree there. I don't think you can be motivated to
sacrifice if you don't first understand love."
"But to really love another, there must be great sacrifice."
"Perhaps that is true."
"In the sense that you will put another before yourself, sacrifice
your self interest."
"What is it?"
"I think Saint Mother Teresa said that. She said, 'If you really
love one another properly, there must be great sacrifice'."
"I don't know that Saint."
Duo shrugged. "She's only been a saint hundreds of years, not
thousands. She did good works in India when there were many poor
starving people and then after her deaths some miracles were
attributed to her. There have to be miracles and such in order to
make someone a saint."
"She would think we were doing a good job."
"Yeah, like Sister Tess at the school." Duo laughed, "I think back
then the church still very officially objected to homosexuality."
There was an awkward lull in conversation, and then Duo
said, "Seraph is kick ass!"
Heero smiled. "Aa. He's an angel."
"Duh, I mean a seraph is an angel, one of the highest, all the
symbolic names in the movie are not lost on me."
"Oh, I know you are an intellectual. I meant, in the computer sense,
he would be a Daemon, but he's not part of the underworld crowd, so
he's an angel, though, he's somehow lost his wings. Merovingian
comments on it in the next movie."
"It did seem like they knew each other."
"Yes. I think they must have, from long ago, before they were in the
Matrix and both served in the machine mainframe. The Merovingian
feels Seraph betrayed him. Maybe it has something to do with the
oracle. He doesn't seem to like her."
Duo laughed. "Seraph's a guardian angel."
"Yes, he is."
"Do you think Merovingian is like Lucifer… Satan?"
"Not fully certain of that. I would say he is definitely like an
underworld god from some polytheistic pantheon, but I am not certain
if he is… though, I do believe we should consider him alike to a
fallen angel. I do not know if he should be Lucifer specifically."
"Did ya know that Lucifer isn't really Satan's name? It was a sort
of mistranslation. I don't think the proper name of the Adversary is
"But now, if you say Lucifer, it's understood you mean the Devil,
and so the name has come to mean that…"
"Kinda like me being Duo. Fair enough."
"I think that within these movies, the devil would have to be one
who offered more knowledge, and the Merovingian does not seem to
really impart knowledge, more like he hordes it and traffics it for
"I guess in the Gnostic slant the creator is more the evil one, the
Demiurge, and the serpent really like your friend who's trying to
show you the truth."
"Yes. I think that is how the theory that the movies are based in
Gnosticism goes: in Reloaded the Architech is the Demiurge and Neo
is the serpent leading others to the truth and they do not meet the
real 'God' until the next movie."
Heero laughed. "You saw that movie?"
"It played really late at night on one of the Disney channels."
"It did look like the MCP! I think that was 'God', the collective
voice of the machine mainframe."
"Kinda all Deus Ex Machina."
"Actually I think that is the character's name."
"But it really wasn't plot convenience. It seemed so well thought
"That is why it is clever."
"You know, I think these movies are really deep."
"That is what I have been saying."
"We should watch them all again sometime, maybe with Quatre."
"He would bring a different perspective."
"What's with Smith?"
Heero laughed. "You just have to remember that he is Neo's equal and
opposite. He is becoming more like a human while Neo is becoming
more like a machine."
"You mean how he can fry the squidies?"
"Maybe. Few agree on why he can do that. That spawned the Matrix
within a Matrix theory and the dual Matrix theory. I think maybe he
acquired the ability simply because he had been to the source by
that time, though some people think it has to do with the candy."
"The piece of candy the Oracle just gave him? He just pocketed it."
"Yes, but they do not show that he does not eat it either."
"Well, they don't show that he eats it."
"Yes, but there are cuts and edits. Action can happen between
"You think it was just being to the source?"
"It seems the simplest solution, it does not rely on information
that cannot be confirmed within the films."
Duo turned his head away from the movie, to look directly at Heero.
Heero saw the movement from the corners of his eyes and shifted his
gaze toward Duo. "I feel like we are on a date", Duo said.
Duo grinned. "I do. I feel like we are on a date."
"But we can do this all the time, if we are both home."
Duo turned his head, seemed to look nowhere in particular. "Do you
know…when you were away, there were a few people who knew I was a
little interested in you. I tried not to let on. They sometimes
would tell me how you and I were so different. Maybe they wanted me
to understand it was no one's fault if we would never hang out or
work together again, or be friends. Heero, you really are someone I
would be friends with. God, I love the sex." His voice said he loved
the sex. "But I like that you can talk to me about stuff and just…
you know… not because of who I am or…"
"I understand." Heero corrected himself, "I know. That is how I
feel, too. Just hanging out is fun."
Duo laughed and looked toward Heero again. "Hangin' out with you is
more fun when you are wearing so little!" He leaned toward Heero,
rather quickly, and it actually startled Heero.
"We just…" Heero flounded, just not being able to find the rights
words that were neither too crude or too sappy.
"Heero, I want you. Our love is sacred and profane!"
Heero laughed happily as Duo nipped at his ear. He knew exactly what