Disclaimer: GW and characters not mine, writing not for profit, don't sue me please; I can't afford it. ^^;
Pairing: 1+2+1, eventual 1x2
Warnings: abstractness, yaoi (no, ya think?), angst
Notes: Abstract in the extreme. Also strange. Like the
Impressionist style of painting, it gives more the impression of events, rather
than describing it clearly. POVs and other fixed points change at random, and
it's meant to be slightly confusing and unclear. Sort of... blurry. ^^;
Thanks to Amanda, Mic, MOrgan, Hitomi no shi and griffen_cub for your kind replies!
Glad someone enjoys it as much as I am. ^^ And a HUGE thank you to Hiriyou for betaing--*so*
much better than it would've been without you, girl. ^_^
Stuff in italics is thoughts, speech, or emotions, and just to further confuse you, you probably
won't always be able to tell which is which, or who it belongs to. Sometimes,
it could be either, or both. ^^
Summary: An abstract version of an arc, sort of. I don't know what else to call it... This part, confrontation again, with a
less-than-certain outcome...
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Impressions: Convergence
Part 2: Confusion
by Kagemihari
Confusion
god, so strange
can't read him
always so expressionless
can't tell -- I wish...
ever ready smile, a mask
can't tell what he's thinking
I wish...
confusing emotions, actions, words
avoidance
discomforting uncertainty
mutual frustration, annoyance
a puzzle, with no solution
anger flares, falters -- strange...
what was that?
don't want to know
leave in doubt, avoiding --
revelation, or exposure?
fear
of losing, reaching out
sure to meet rage or rejection
maybe -- something, seen...
impossible hope, quickly crushed
but that looked like --
confusion
signals mixed
lies, truth, illusion -- what?
feel a stare
turn, see no one, nothing there
but the lingering warmth
of a fallen glance
saying... what?
beneath the surface hides
'do you really want to know?'
no... ?
study a stranger's familiar face
from across a crowded room
don't understand
confusion
please god -- no, it can't be...
please
unquenchable hope, but aching deep
dare to dream
to believe
strange and wonderful, if true
wait, hope -- maybe...
touch of eyes again, look up
don't turn yet -- who's looking?
feel a stare of warmth -- not hate?
who? what?
confusion
disbelief
got to be kidding
sure it was him
fleeting glimpse of blue
.... caught me, shit!
flee the wrath of a Soldier
damn...
no way out, nowhere to go
know he caught me looking
god... !
have to face the music, sometime
please....
"what do you want?"
defiant, blue on blue collide
gazes meet and spark
flash
fear, and something else, deeper -- yes...
....yes?
confusion, hope
my god, it can't be true...
but no...
the masks lie shattered
truth naked of defense
souls meet
and flash, spark, flame
oh... my god...
this fire, desire
unhidden, unbound, unfettered
you mean...
all this time
wasted staying safe
confused by illusions
regret, relief -- hope, joy
god, I was so...
... afraid
never thought, never dreamed
can this be real?
hope, confusion
hand reaches out, then falls
uncertain
"are you... do you ...."
please....
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