disclaimer: the boys aren't mine. i just play with them for my own entertainment.
warnings: yaoi, AU, OOC, POV, PWP, lemon, sap!
spoliers: you're kidding....right?
pairings: 1X2X1... do i ever write anything else?!?!
notes: this one is for d_huron, who is unrelenting in his pleas to get a lemon out of me! i made him wait so long... just to watch him squirm.
additional notes: future parts of this fic may or may not include: vouyerism, masturbation, a little kinkyness, a touch of my odd sense of humor, poison ivy and things you should definitely not try at home!
over the river and through the woods
It was a fairly light-hearted comment given what had transpired and I'd meant it when I said it; the thrill of the news nearly overshadowing our encounter with the bear. My high wasn't that long lived though and I somehow sensed that Heero knew that and figured that perhaps he himself was still a bit shaken.
"On second thought, what do you say we have a drink first?" I asked. Neither of us were in the habit of abusing alcohol and I recognized that this probably wasn't the best way to handle the situation, but I really didn't care. It would serve to calm us both down a little and it was the fastest way to get from Point A to Point B.
Luckily, Heero agreed; Point A sucked.
"Sounds like a great idea." he replied, reaching under the table for cups and the bottle of Southern Comfort. He poured close to two shots in each of the paper cups and handed one to me. I brought it to my lips and drank it all down at once, shivering slightly and setting my empty cup down on the table behind us. I looked over at Heero who was just about done doing the same thing.
"Now what?" I asked.
"Now we pretend as if nothing happened." he replied, reaching out for the backgammon game.
"I'm not so sure I'm capable of doing that.." I told him in all honesty.
"Let's try it for a few minutes. You want to be tan or brown?" he asked.
I rose and seated myself across the table from him. "Tan."
We set up the board and played several games and I had to admit that after about the third game, I was feeling much more relaxed than just 30 minutes prior. It was most likely a combination of the alcohol and Heero's suggestion that put my mind more at ease; I'm guessing he figured as much.
"That was a good idea, koi." I told him with a smile.
He returned the smile and looked around us. "We still have a little daylight left. Feel up to that shower now?"
"You bet." I replied, standing. "I'll go get my stuff." I added, walking toward the tent.
"I'll come with you." he told me, standing and following me inside.
It seemed like an odd thing for him to do, despite the fact that he needed to gather his things as well. He zipped the tent behind us and sat beside me as I reached for my backpack.
He didn't say anything, he just sat there, looking at me as if he wanted to say something.
"Been a hell of a day, huh?" I asked, grinning over at him.
"Not one I'd like to repeat."
"None of it?" I asked with surprise. "Hmm... I thought there were a few moments that were definitely worth a replay." I responded with a wink.
"Maybe all but the bear part." he said, then paused. "How is your back?"
"Not ready for a replay just yet." I returned with a huge grin. "I'm all set here, how bout you?"
He nodded and we exited the tent, grabbing the lantern and heading for the showers.
There was enough light still filtering through the trees to allow us to start our journey without the aid of the lantern. Heero had taken my hand shortly after we left the tent and our fingers remained tightly entwined as we walked for the first 10 minutes.
Sometimes it's really difficult to figure out what is going on inside his head. I can tell by his quiet demeanor and the lack of emotion on his face that something is up. If it were me, I'd be sending out more of a signal, but this is one of the areas where the two of us differ greatly. I know that when he is ready; when he has worked it all through in his head, he will tell me. I don't mind admitting that it bugs the hell out of me; it's one of the few things about him that does.
"Something you want to talk about?" I ask him as we approach the showers.
He has totally lapsed into what I've come to refer to as 'silent mode' and merely shakes his head in response to my question.
I inwardly curse the part of him that chooses to shut me out. I'm pretty sure we are thinking along the same lines; I wasn't going to be the first to give in though.
There was nothing further spoken and we arrived at the showers in total darkness. Heero turned the fluorescent light on and we entered the building, our hands falling apart as if by instinct.
"I'm going to be a while." I told him, setting my stuff down on the bench outside the shower. "Gonna do my hair." He continued to make his way into the other stall, not even acknowledging what I had just said. I should have been pissed, but I wasn't. On the contrary, I was worried....
I'd stripped and deposited my first of several quarters into the small metal box just outside the stall, passing my hand under the spray to check its temperature before entering the shower. The young ranger had kept his word and I smiled as I stepped into the warm water, almost wishing I'd mentioned something about the lack of shower curtains.
I had barely finished working the shampoo through my hair when I felt another pair of hands join mine in massaging the soap into my endless tresses.
"Hey, love. Everything alright?"
He continued while my hands moved further down my lengthy hair to work the lather in; his fingernails scraping my scalp with the perfect amount of pressure and all the skill of a trained hairdresser.
"Mmm... that's so nice, Heero." I moaned, my hands almost stilling as I instinctively relaxed under his touch. He had such a gift for this, I never hesitated to remind him. "You really have no idea how wonderful that feels." I whispered. He gently pushed my hands away, fully taking over the tremendous task.
"Are you going to tell me what is the matter?" I asked a minute or two later.
Once again there was no reply and I allowed Heero's hands to guide me under the spray, tossing my head back to rinse the shampoo from my hair. Those same hands pulled me from the water several minutes later and directly into a crushing embrace. I made no attempt to resist, instead holding him equally as close. I could feel his upper body vibrating slightly in my grasp and the muted sounds of his stifled sobs. My emotions had been brought under control and now it was time for him to let go. I tightened my grip and waited until his arms loosened before looking at him and smiling; knowing there wouldn't be a word uttered between us about what had just happened.
The walk back to camp found both of our moods significantly lighter and we agreed that the evening would end a bit prematurely. It was barely 9:00, yet the both of us were fairly exhausted. We brought the sleeping bag out again, settling down onto it for a few quiet moments beside the fire. Heero sat behind me, brushing out my hair while we discussed what activities we might engage in the following day.
"I'd like to get in a little fishing before we leave. Since we're going to bed early anyway, tomorrow would probably be perfect." I suggested.
"Good idea." he returned, moving back to brush the ends of my hair. "You wanna stay up a while longer while some of this dries?" he asked.
I nodded and pulled the towel back up over my chest, holding it in place.
"I'll add some more wood to the fire then."
I watched him do just that, turning off the lantern as the fire's light quickly grew and satisfied with it, he sat behind me again. I leaned back onto him and waited for his arms to encircle me, snuggling into the hug. I closed my eyes an laid my head on his arm, waiting a minute or two before sharing my thoughts. "This is so relaxing. Did you ever think you'd end up like this?"
I smiled. "Like alive and happy."
"I never gave it much thought."
I looked up at him. "You are happy though, right?"
He didn't answer right away, still captivated by the fire in front of us. I waited patiently until he lowered his head to look at me.
"Why do you ask me these things?"
I saddened a bit and turned my attention to the fire, not responding immediately. "Sometimes I'm just not sure."
I wished more than anything to have even the smallest trace of psychic powers at that moment. I hoped he was trying to formulate some kind of response; he was never one to just blurt something out. It was entirely possible he planned on ignoring my question all together.
I waited a few more minutes then shifted to sit, stopped by the tightening of Heero's arms around me. Expectantly, I tilted my head back and looked up at him and into his eyes. "I'm deliriously happy." he whispered.
There was no doubt he meant those words. My eyes closed, forcing that one tear to roll down my cheek. "Me too."