disclaimer: the boys aren't mine. i just manipulate them for my own personal enjoyment.

rating: *this fic is not yet rated* - Officially NC-17
feedback: it's necessary to live...so, yes!
warnings for entire fic: shounen-ai/yaoi, angst, duo/heero torture, language, sap, small lemon-ish spots(?), AU (AC 200)
spoilers: none
pairings: odd....can't explain but it involves heero and duo and 3X4 implied.

notes: another one that came to me in dreamscape. yes, i know, i have weird dreams. you should see what happens after i eat pepperoni pizza ^_~

//heero's thoughts//
:: duo's thoughts ::

momentary lapse of reason
part 40

Duo woke on Saturday morning to the smell of crisp bacon that had filtered its way into the bedroom. He let out a small yawn and rolled over onto the other side of the bed where Heero had slept beside him the night before. Unable to suppress a huge smile, he inhaled deeply; his lovers essence barely recognizable beneath the scent of their lovemaking that filled the room. Allowing himself a moment longer to remain in the luxury the thoughts the previous evening brought, he rose slowly and stretched before heading into the bathroom.


"I thought you said we weren't leaving the bed." the whisper came softly as two arms surrounded his waist from behind. "Hmmm?" he asked playfully.

Heero let out a low chuckle and closed his eyes as Duo planted a soft kiss on the nape of his neck, relaxing back onto him. "Mmmm.... I thought breakfast was a valid excuse." he replied, turning within the embrace to face his lover.

"Hmmm...." he mused, placing his lips on Heero's "... I guess we can make an exception." he finished, tilting his head to follow through on the kiss. With their bodies pressed against one anothers and finding Heero clearly as aroused as he was, Duo slid his hands into the back pockets of Heero's jeans and ground his hips against his lovers stiffness. Somehow finding the resolve to resist Duo's teasing and his body's own mounting urge, Heero broke the kiss yet left his arms surrounding Duo. "Hungry?" he questioned.

"Starved.." Duo began, "...but we can have breakfast first." he finished in a low seductive tone.


Dinner that evening found the two once again faced with Duo's immanent departure. The process was becoming more and more difficult. Heero had toyed with the idea of returning to New York once the project he was involved with was finished. Unfortunately, it wasn't slated for completion for another two months and the prospect of being separated for such as extended period was weighing heavily on both of their minds. He had decided against sharing his thoughts with Duo about moving back into the house until the time drew nearer; waiting to see how their relationship developed as well.

"Two months, huh?" Duo asked sadly, sighing as Heero nodded his response from across the table.

"I know... it's going to rough on both of us." Heero replied.

"You ain't kidding." Duo responded frowning, his fork nervoulsy poking at his egs.

"I'll be in Japan for the first month, but there's always the phone... and the computer." Heero spoke softly as he laid his hand on top of Duo's.

Duo nodded and smiled up at Heero's concerned expression. "Yeah.... they say absence makes the heart grow fonder anyway."

Heero raised his eyebrows. "Yes... we have some first hand experience with that. Don't we?" he asked smiling.

"Uhh...yeah, that we do." Duo returned with a low laugh. "So, when are you leaving?" he asked in a more serious tone.

"Tuesday morning." he replied as he pushed back from the table and brought himself to his feet.

Clearing the table in silence while Duo remained seated, Heero watched his pensive lover out of the corner of his eye. He had been working on securing the huge contract for the past 4 months, this upcoming trip was the culmination of a great deal of his current efforts... it was unavoidable. "Duo....."

Drawing himself slowly out of his thoughts, he looked up at his saddened lover and stood. "It's okay, Heero." he started, taking Heero's hands and intertwining their fingers as he smiled toard him. "I'll be fine. Think you can stand me for a few days after you get back though?"

"Hai." he replied solemnly taking Duo into his arms, "It's the being without you part I can't stand."


The four weeks he spent in the Orient held the imaginable frustration for both Heero and Duo. There was a scarcity of free time with Heero's hectic work schedule, the eleven hour time difference presenting it's own issues. It had become apparent by the end of the first week that the planned contact would never come to pass, though it wasn't for lack of effort on either one of their parts.


Eight days into Heero's trip and no suitable distraction worthy of Duo's attention, found three former Gundam pilots being descended on by one exceptionally cheerful braided young man. "Hey, Guys? I just had a *great* idea...."

Wufei looked suspiciously up at the twinkle of mischief in Duo's eyes before looking over at Trowa. "I recognize that look.... I think we are in serious trouble here."

Duo's grin widened as he addressed the three. "Oh come on! I know you're all up for a little adventure." he winked. "Life only happens once. At least listen to what I have to say."

The three nodded and Duo sat cross legged in the center of the den, clearing his throat once assured he had their undivided attention. "Well.... it's like this....." he began.


The phone rang shortly after Duo had tucked himself in for the night. It was an unusually early bedtime for a Sunday evening but the day's activities had sufficiently exhausted him. Extending his arm toward the nightstand, he blindly reached out for the receiver and brought it to his ear. "Hello?" he asked, his voice soft with sleep.

"Did I wake you?"

Duo sat up in his bed. "Heero? Hi! Yeah... umm... I'm up now though. How is the trip going?"

"Just wrapping things up here. I'll be heading home in another few days. How are you?"

"Better now. I've missed hearing your voice..... it's been almost a week." he responded somberly.

"I know, I'm sorry, Duo. I'm on a tight schedule here. You cannot believe how many hours a day they have me working. So, what have you been up to?"

"Not too much since I emailed you the other day. You got my mail, right?"

"Yeah. Sounds like you are very busy at work as well. Are you going to be able to get a few days off at the end of the week?" Heero asked, his voice reflecting his reluctant hope.

Duo lowered his head and shook it from side to side. "I'm not sure. I'll have to get back to you later in the week on that."

There was a brief period of silence at the possibility of having to further delay their reunion.



"I really friggen miss you......"


Murphy's Law chose to dictate the lovers' paths following Heero's return home, keeping Duo from returning to California for the next two weekends. The relationship was clearly strained by the events of the previous six weeks, more so for Heero than Duo.

The braided former pilot had implored his ever present charm and not a small dose of shameless begging in securing the upcoming Friday off. Returning from his successful early morning visit with Une, he turned toward his computer to inform Heero of the good news.

[] morning sexy

Heero heard the beep and turned toward his computer, smiling as the words made their way onto his screen.

[] morning yourself

[] guess what?

Heero cocked his head, riddling his response with sarcasm.

[] the fates have finally decided to smile on us?

Duo laughed out loud and typed his response.

[] something like that. up for some company?

Heero frowned as he looked over at the stacks of printouts littering his desk and the floor surrounding it. There would be little time to spend with his long-absent lover during the upcoming weekend. He hoped that Duo would still be willing to make the long journey with that knowledge.

[] duo.. ive got two weeks left before i wrap this project up...

Duo mentally acknowledged the warning, the two having previously discussed Heero's upcoming heavy workload.

[] i know. i can postpone the trip for another two weeks if you want me to.

Heero shook his head and typed his reply.

[] no. just wanted to let you know we won't be able to spend much time together...

Duo smiled.

[] doesnt matter. my flight arrives at 4

Heero frowned.

[] not sure if i can make it to the airport by then, duo...

[] no worries. ill let myself in.


Sleep had come easy to Heero on Thursday night, as it had every night for the past several weeks. Returning home exhausted at nearly midnight, he barely recalled his head hitting the pillow before the alarm clock rang, startling him into a state of reluctant wakefulness. Grabbing a quick breakfast, he headed for the office, thoroughly distracted by thoughts of his lovers return.


Duo had spent little time beneath his covers that night in an attempt to get some rest. His mind continually assaulted him with the thousand and one things he had to do before his upcoming trip. He thought back over his conversation earlier in the day with Heero, his lover worried and perhaps feeling a bit guilty about the lack of time he would be able to devote to him. It really didn't concern him in the least. He delighted in the fact that Heero needn't be concerned for much longer either.... even if he didn't know it yet.


His lack of sleep the night before held little consequence as Duo was assured the five hour flight would allow him plenty of time to catch up on his much needed rest. What he didn't count on were having his thoughts hijacked.

Seated on the plane and now just 6 hours away from his destination, Duo found himself unable to think of anything but Heero. Laying out the scenario of their upcoming encounter, Duo rested his head back and inevitably envisioned their much anticipated physical reunion, his body reacting as would be expected. Looking down into his lap, he smiled and covered the bulge in his jeans with the small airline pillow and give in to the guilty pleasure of his naughty thoughts.


Heero looked up at the clock on the wall across his office for the third time in the past hour. He had every intention of surprising Duo at the airport, the one small glitch in the current script delaying his departure.

Finally working the bugs out, he rose and grabbed his jacket to make a hasty exit. He wouldn't be able to get to the terminal on time, but he could certainly manage to make it back to his apartment before for Duo's expected arrival; allowing him to properly welcome him back.


Kneeling in the hallway outside the apartment as he fished in his overnight bag, Duo zipped the bag closed and rose with keys in hand to unlock the door.

Hearing the activity on the other side of the door, Heero poised himself just inside the entrance, swallowing nervously as he watched the knob turning in a counterclockwise motion.... his heart pounding by the time the door cracked partway open. He could see Duo's hand on the rounded metal knob and watched with a smile as he bent to pick up his bag, unaware of Heero's eyes upon him.

Entering and closing the door behind him, Duo turned to find the object of desire standing in the center of the room. "HEERO!" he cried out, dropping his bag at his feet and throwing himself into Heero's open arms.

Arms filled with his smiling lover, Heero squeezed him tightly and nestled his head in the crook of Duo's neck, breathing deeply to inhale his long absent scent. "Mmmmm.... it's really you." he smiled, stepping back and taking Duo's hands in his.

Duo chuckled. "You were expecting someone else?"

Heero shook his head and moved forward, placing one hand on the back of Duo's head, drawing Duo's mouth to his with considerable force. It was perhaps the most intense kiss they had shared, both young men equally aggressive as their tongues sparred and explored each others mouths. Four hands revealed their longing as they roamed over each other bodies, touching everything within their grasp. Pressed firmly together with hardness against hardness, they rocked their hips against one another, further igniting the fires within.

Duo stepped back breathless several minutes later. "Wow." he grinned.

Heero blushed slightly and moved across the room to gather Duo's overnight bag. "So, how was your flight?"

Duo bent to untie his shoes, toeing them off before sending them flying across the room. "Actually, Heero..." he began, moving toward him. "I've been hard as rock for the past five hours thinking about you." he added, taking Heero's hand and guiding it to his erection. "Mmmm....yes..." he moaned, pushing his hips forward into his lovers palm. Taking the bag from Heero's hand and dropping on the floor, Duo assaulted his open mouth as his hands reached behind Heero to grasp at his bottom, grinding himself into him. "You *are* going to do something about it, aren't you?" he moaned into Heero's ear.

Closing his eyes as he let out a low moan, Heero reached between them and unfastened Duo's jeans with one hand while the other delved inside to wrap a fist around his arousal, squeezing it gently. "I most certainly am." he whispered, removing his hand from inside Duo's pants. Tugging at the waistband, he slid the fabric down over his lovers legs, holding them still as he stepped out of them. "Those too." Heero ordered as he eyed his boxers, tented and wet with his desire.

"I'll be right back." Heero told him, turning to leave as Duo began slipping out of the silky shorts. Returning just seconds later with a white tube in hand, Heero took Duo by the hand, seating him on the edge of the sofa. "Lie back." he told him softly, coming to his knees on the floor in front of him. "Mmmm.... nice..." Heero moaned, lifting one of Duo's legs to rest his foot flat on the couch. "....very nice."

Covering the fingers of his one hand with the clear gel, he looked up at Duo, finding him attentive to his maneuvers. Reaching his hand up to brush his entrance, Heero watched as Duo spread his legs further apart for him and shifted to the edge of the sofa to allow him complete access. Rising to his knees, Heero pressed his chest against Duo's and looked into his eyes as he slid one finger into his opening. "You look so beautiful like this." he murmured, fingering him roughly. "Nnn.. Heero... more." he moaned, resting his head down on the arm of the sofa.

Recapturing his mouth in a deep kiss as he pushed a second finger inside, Heero began working them in and out as Duo shifted his hips to take them further inside. "Soon it will be me inside of you...." Heero whispered, "... making you beg for more.", continuing to stretch the tight passage. Sliding the digits out, Heero stood and removed his jeans and stepped out of them before seating himself on the couch. Duo watched as Heero covered his straining arousal with the slick gel, spreading his legs wide as he looked over at him. "Come here, koi." he called, extending his arms out to take Duo's hand in his.

Climbing up onto Heero's lap, Duo positioned himself over Heero's cock, holding onto the base firmly as he slowly lowered himself down onto it. His entrance stretched taut as the wide ridge of its head slipped past the tight barrier, gasping as inch by inch of Heero's thick length filled him. Cobalt eyes stared in awe as his violet-eyed lover took him in, the pleasure of the act sweeping across each of his features. "Oh....yesssss." he hissed, finally lowering himself down onto Heero's thighs.

"Is that what you wanted?" Heero asked, lifting himself up slightly off the couch to fully bury himself. "What you have been thinking about?" he asked, snapping his hips up again. "Uhhh... yes... that's it." Duo cried out, rising up and dropping back down onto Heero's lap. Heero's hands reached around him, each one opening wide to cup his lovers tight bottom. Holding each globe firmly, he slid himself to the edge of the couch and spread Duo's cheeks apart, thrusting up at the same time.

Two loud gasps accompanied the movement and Heero repeated it, Duo thrusting himself downward simultaneously. "Unh....do that again!" Duo cried out, reaching behind Heero with both hands to clench the back of the sofa. Heero hissed and firmly grasped Duo's waist, rocking his hips up. The added leverage gave Duo more power to his downward lunge, sending Heero's cock deep within him. "Ohhh.... Fuck!!" came the scream, followed by his shrill pleas. "Harder, Heero... please!!"

Duo's knuckles turned white as he braced himself against the sofa and rose up to let Heero's length slip almost completely from him before slamming himself back down. "Nnnn... Duo... faster!" Heero cried, tightening his grip on the soft flesh in his grasp as Duo increased the pace of his thrusts. "God.. Duo, you feel so good." he moaned, thrusting up into the velvety tightness. Sensing Duo was also on the verge of climax, Heero brushed his thumb over the tip of Duo's cock and wrapped his fist around the thick shaft, squeezing in tightly. "Nnn... look at me, Duo." he groaned.

Moaning in response to the words and touch, Duo looked down at Heero with eyelids heavy in pleasure. "I'm ready, baby, make me scream." he groaned, forcing his hips down to fully impale himself as Heero began stroking him roughly. "Geezus!! Duo !!!!" Heero screamed as the channel surrounding his cock constricted. "Uh... don't stop!" came the loud groan as the first stream left him to spray out over Heero's chest. "Oh yeah... harder Heero !!! That's it... come with me!" he screamed, riding him faster as he felt Heero shuddering beneath him. "DUO!!..... oh.... FUCK!!" he cried out, lifting his hips high up off the couch. Heero's cock began to throb and twitch within the sublime warmth and he let loose a loud cry as he climaxed, filling Duo with his essence. His hand continued coaxing the milky slickness from him, drawing more moans and whimpers of surrender from both of them.


Relaxing back into the couch, Heero pulled his sweaty lover down onto him where they lay panting in each others arms. Letting his fingertips move lightly up and down the length of Duo's spine, Heero moaned and lifted Duo up to look at him. "Sleepy?" he asked softly, smiling as Duo nodded, laying his head back down on Heero's shoulder. "Why don't you lie down. I'm going to work for while." he said, rising as Duo climbed off of his lap to curl up on the couch. "Wake me when you're done." he replied through a yawn.


The last thing Heero wanted to do was work. While it was only 6:30, he was exhausted; the fact that he could see the nude form of his sleeping lover stretched out on the couch from where he sat was more than mildly distracting. Focusing his attention back on the screen in front of him, Heero sighed and began compiling his latest script.

He watched Duo sleep on and off over the next few hours as several of the tasks he was currently working on required little input from him. The time passed quickly as he threw himself into the job, only the low rumbling in his stomach causing him to take note of the late hour.

Making his way into the kitchen, he pulled the menu for the local Chinese Restaurant out of the drawer and dialed. Uncertain as to Duo's likes and dislikes as far as this particular cuisine was concerned, Heero ordered 6 different dishes; figuring the two would finish the leftovers sometime during the weekend.


"Duo.." he called softly from a standing position over him. "... time to wake up."

Rolling over at the sound of Heero's voice, he looked up to find him smiling down at him. "What?" he asked with weak smile.

"Dinner will be here in about an hour." he informed his sleepy lover, bringing himself to his knees beside the couch. "I thought you might want to shower first." he finished, brushing the hair from Duo's face.

"Mmmm.. good idea." he returned, slowly bringing himself to a seated position on the couch. "You take one yet?" he questioned, looking up at Heero as he stood.

"No...." he started, pulling Duo to his feet and into his arms, "I figured I'd wait for you."

"Mmm.....did I ever mention that I like the way you think?" Duo purred as he followed Heero into the bathroom.


Duo turned the faucet on as Heero undressed and stood before the mirror to release his now disheveled braid. "So, what did you order for dinner... not that it matters, I'm starved."

"Chinese." Heero replied getting two towels out from the cabinet underneath the sink, "That okay?" he asked, laying them over the towel rack.

Duo nodded and stepped into the stall. "Though I much prefer Japanese." he grinned, pulling Heero inside and closing the shower curtain around them.

Heero shook his head and took Duo's hand, guiding him under the spray with him. "Do you know what *I* want?" he whispered, one arm tightening around Duo's waist to bring him closer. "You....." he moaned, rubbing his semi erect cock against the inside of Duo's thigh. "... inside of me."

Duo groaned as Heero made his desire known, the mere thought of it bringing his arousal to full attention. Pulling him closer, Duo shifted his hips to rub his erection against Heero's as his hand moved downward to tease his entrance. "Lube still under the sink?" he asked, stepping back. Answering with only a nod, he watched Duo step out of the shower, moaning out loud at the view as he bent over to reach inside the cabinet.

"You've got a great ass, koi." Heero informed his smirking lover as Duo stood and turned toward him. "So do you...." Duo returned, squeezing the gel out onto his hand and taking a step toward him. "...and I can't wait to bury myself in it." he finished with a rough kiss as he plunged one finger inside Heero's opening.

Pushing back on the single intruder, Heero moaned and pulled back from the kiss, "More..." he pleaded, pressing his lips against Duo's again as his lover complied, adding another finger as he worked the two in and out of his entrance. Heero's body offered little resistance as Duo stretched him, easily welcoming the third probing digit as he squirmed in Duo's arms. "Take me, Duo." he whispered, gasping as Duo removed his fingers and pulled him down onto his knees to face him.

Duo moaned as he covered his arousal with lube, shivering under his own touch. "Turn around, Heero." he ordered, reclining down onto his folded knees. Scooting back until his calves were next to Duo's, Heero rose and continued moving backward until he was pressed tight against Duo's chest, leaving his straining cock poised just inches from his eager entrance.

Reaching between them, Duo teased Heero's opening with blunt tip of his arousal, nudging it with a slight upward thrust of his hips. "Do it, Duo." Heero gasped as Duo pushed upward with hips, burying his head just inside. "Nnnn... Heero... I don't want to hurt you." he moaned.

Biting down on his lower lip as his opening stretched wide to accept Duo's thickness, Heero groaned aloud, thrusting himself down to take the rest of his length inside. "SHIT!" Duo cried out, shocked by Heero's sudden movement and the sensation of being buried deep within him. "Unh.....DUO!" Heero screamed, the initial pain of penetration fading quickly as his body accepted the slick intruder. Reclining back onto Duo's chest, Heero laid his head on the shoulder behind him, breathing heavy as fingers found their way up to his chest to tease and pinch his nipples. "You feel sooo good, Heero." Duo groaned, grinding his hips up into Heero's bottom.

Laying one hand on each of his thighs, Heero bent forward and lifted himself up, letting Duo nearly slip from within him before slowly lowering himself back down. Heero moaned as Duo grasped his hips tightly to guide his movements, increasing the pace and power of his motions. "I want to hear you scream." he whispered, jerking his hips up as Heero drove downward, the tip of his cock brushing against Heero's prostate. "UGH.... DUO !!!" he cried, his head falling back as he gasped in pleasure. "Again, Heero?" Duo asked seductively, his tongue licking roughly at Heero's extended neck. "Hai." he choked out, "..please...."

Not sure how much more of the intense stimulation he could stand, Duo reached around and curled his fist around Heero's thick shaft, diligently pumping it's length as he thrust up into him. "Lay back, Heero.... I want to see you come." he groaned, watching as Heero moved back to rest his head on his shoulder. "Mmm..... beautiful." he moaned as he focused his gaze on Heero's face.

With one hand gripping each side of the porcelain tub, Heero commenced his movements, Duo snapping his hips upward with each of his downward thrusts. "Oh yeah.... that's gonna do it." Duo growled, stroking Heero frantically. "Oh God.... DUO !!!" He cried out, arching back against Duo's chest as his body began to jerk and spasm. He could feel his muscles clenching around Duo's cock as he ejaculated, crying out in sheer ecstasy with the first stream of his release. Heero's wordless scream was the final straw and Duo let out his own cry, thrusting upward to seal himself against his lover's trembling form. His cock twitched inside the incredibly tight passage as he attained climax and he released his passion deep inside of Heero with a feral scream.


Finishing their shower, the two dried off and dressed, making their way into the living room just as the doorbell rang. "Perfect timing." Heero smiled as he walked toward the door. Duo nodded and entered the kitchen to set the table for dinner.

Duo volunteered to clear the table and put the leftover food away, allowing Heero more time to work. Seating himself on the couch with a book after he had finished the tasks, he turned to see Heero working diligently over his laptop. Smiling at the familiar sight, Duo laid down and began to read.

:: "The house stood on a slight rise just on the edge of the village. It stood out on its own and looked out over a broad spread of West Country farmland. Not a remarkable house by any means--it was about thirty years old, squattish, squarish, made of brick, and had four windows set in the front of a size and proportion which more or less exactly failed to please the eye." :: [1]

Author's Note:

[1] This is the first paragraph of "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" by Douglas N. Adams. I highly recommend reading his entire 'Hitchhiker's Trilogy' which, in keeping with his grand sense of humor, consists of not 3, but 5 incredible novels. I was deeply saddened by his untimely death last week at the far too early age of 49.... just 7 years beyond the answer to life, the universe and everything.....

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