WARNING: Very High Angst Lemon, Proceed With Caution, Kleenex Warning
[Sequel to Tragic Secrets; Book 6 of the "Secrets" Arc, Final Installment of arc]
Author: Enigma
Written: October & November, 2000
Cumulative Rating: NC-17
Pairings: (1x2/2x1) (3x4/4x3) (5+S)
Category: Angst, yaoi, AU
Cumulative Warnings: Angst, lemon, yaoi, sap, AU, OOC
Be Prepared: Kleenex Warnings!! also: avoid Colas
DISCLAIMERS: I don't own Gundam Wing or any other anime or TV characters I use here, just the ideas in this story and some characters that are new are truly mine. Any reference to copyrighted material or trademarked goods should be considered an "homage" (yeah, right!) Don't sue me, even the lawyers wouldn't enjoy it, except of course for the Ashe and Jojo characters!
NOTE: Timeframe---after the war has ended and the Gundams were destroyed. //yada, yada, yada// = inner thoughts

Silencing The Secrets
Part 20

Caught totally off-guard yet again, Heero watched in amazement as Duo kicked off his own boots and stretched out in the shade next to him. "Why?"

"Why not?" Duo laughed then added a terribly cryptic comment, "Are you pondering what I'm pondering, Pinky?"

"Excuse me?" Heero wondered if maybe sleep deprivation had caught up with him. He couldn't have been more wrong; *reality* had finally caught up with Duo instead.

Duo laughed long and hard then rolled over to prop himself up on one arm to stare at Heero. "Honestly, Heero, you are not very good at taking a hint. I asked you what you wanted to talk to me about, but how about if I guess instead?"

"Um," Heero was afraid of this option, but decided he'd lost the game already, what more could happen? "Sure. Go ahead if you want to."

"Why, thank you, kind sir!" Duo grinned stealing a kiss and shocking Heero even more. "First off, I'm willing to bet a certain perfect soldier knew I was awake all night and is wondering what the Hell is wrong with me this time, am I right? Don't answer that, let me do it. Well, of course the perfect soldier is right! I *was* awake all night, but that's not what's important, now is it? What's wrong with me? Now, *that's* important! What's wrong with me, Heero, is that I don't know what I want to be when I grow up, that's all. I've been an orphan, a terrorist, a trained spy and an assassin, not jobs I wish to maintain, however, which leaves me wondering where the Hell I'm headed. Bottom line is that I have no idea *where* I'm headed, but that never stopped me before! Now, what does any of this have to do with you, my fine friend?"

Baffled, Heero wisely chose to keep his opinions to himself. "I'm not sure, Duo, why don't you tell me."

"Sure thing, Heero, especially since you asked so nicely!" Again he darted in for another stolen kiss. Laughing at the look on Heero's face he finally ended the torture by simply saying, "What does this have to do with you? Well, everything, of course. I've been trying like crazy to decide if I want to go back to being lovers with you, Heero, and I've made up my mind. Every time we're together I go crazy wanting you. So, unless you can fight me off, you're stuck with me."

He stopped, watching realization dawn on Heero's features as this sank in. "Yup, koi, whether you want me back or not, it's too late. I've decided I want to keep you and take you home with me and I don't even have a home! Feel like fighting me off, Heero, or not? Decide quickly or---"

Duo's happy chatter was cut off in a most satisfying way, Heero grabbed him and held him tightly to him for a timeless kiss which sealed both of their fates irrevocably. Eventually, the need to breathe overcame the heat of the moment and they separated enough to grab hold of one another and pull together in a tight hug. They lay refusing to allow a millimeter of space between them until Heero felt something damp against his cheek.



"Are you sure about that decision?"

Lifting a tear-streaked face into view, Duo smiled into concerned cobalt-blue eyes before kissing Heero tenderly. "Never more sure of anything in my entire life, Heero." Then a touch of nervousness crossed his violet eyes, "Unless of course you don't want the same thing."

A thrill of pure joy ran through Heero's mind as he took control of the embrace and laid Duo down flat on his back. While staring into amethyst pools, he solemnly vowed, "There is nothing I want more out of life than to spend it with you, Duo. I asked this before, but I'll ask it again, will you stay with me and be by my side for the rest of our lives?"

It took Duo's mind a moment to recall those had been the words Heero had used that day long ago when he proposed to him on the street before all of the insanity had erupted. The heart in his chest, though not his by birth, contracted with elation as it became completely clear this was indeed the right answer to virtually all of his questions. A lithe hand reached up to pull Heero down closer to him and he murmured against the lips he'd stolen kisses from, "Yes, Heero. I will indeed stay by your side for the rest of our lives." Then he deepened the kiss leaving no room for doubt how serious he was and how total the commitment was that he offered to his lover.

For the first time in too long, Heero could feel the warmth of the young man beneath him truly radiate through his entire being bringing unbelievable joy to both as the kiss continued.

If breathing had been unnecessary, it's entirely possible they would have refused to ever give up that moment outside of time where they existed briefly, but life isn't like that. When they separated once more, Heero found his hands full of a happy, violet-eyed former Gundam pilot with only one thought on his mind. Consummating the agreement they had just reached.

Grinning wickedly, Heero leaned closer and whispered, "Think there's anyone out here in the middle of nowhere?"

Grinning back conspiratorially, Duo answered simply, "What makes you think I care?"

Laughing, the two proceeded to divest themselves of their clothes and made love so deeply and thoroughly it brought back virtually every memory Duo had lost and definitely created new ones.

Laying quietly in his lover's arms, Duo murmured, "Ne, Heero? Mind if I die right now? I've never been happier and don't want to risk it."

"Hell, yes, I mind!" Came the surprisingly vehement response as steel bands of well-muscled arms tightened around him holding him securely. "I finally get you back, after being apart for a half-dozen gods forsaken months and you want to *die*?!? Don't you dare, Duo Maxwell, or I'll kill myself and come after you!"

"Easy, Heero! Easy! I was just joking!" Duo laughed weakly trying to get his fiancÚ to buy the line but Heero knew better.

"No way, koibito," Heero growled deep in his throat. "Anyone who's been through the emotional Hell you've been through is not allowed to joke like that. You are staying right where I can keep an eye on you until I'm sure everything's taken care of."

"Oh, really?" Duo laughed softly in disbelief. "And just what will convince you I don't need a bodyguard to keep track of me for you until then?"

"Nothing." Heero was firm in his resolve. Wrapping his arms tightly around Duo, he brought those lips, still puffy from their lovemaking, back against his own chest. "There's nothing in the world that will convince me, which is why I'm keeping track of you personally until further notice."

"Now that, Mr. Yuy, is quite a large assignment you've given yourself." Duo still thought he was joking. He wasn't.

"Largest assignment of my life, Mr. Maxwell, but well worth it in the long run." He cocked his head and drew Duo's lips to his own kissing him firmly. "Best assignment of my life, too."

"Oh, Heero," Duo moaned as he once more felt the fires of desire rise within him.

Rolling over to pin his brown haired lover beneath him, Duo began to run hot kisses down the naked expanse of chest that seemed to beckon to him. Heero moaned encouragingly as Duo slowly kissed his way farther down running his tongue in little circles in Heero's navel making him gasp in delight as he felt a cool puff of air follow the heat of the tongue.

Duo pulled away, flashing a coy smile at his lover as he reached up to unwind the loosened braid. Slowly, knowing how much Heero loved seeing his hair down, Duo seductively unwound the braid finally releasing a cascade of soft chestnut hair onto both of them. Soon, the wonderful feeling of Duo's long hair spread across his body was supplemented by the feeling of the first hesitant kisses at the tip of Heero's reawakening erection.

"Uhhh, Duo!" Heero groaned wondering if his own heart could handle so much joy in one day. "Are you, ooohhh! Are you sure you want to do this again so soon? Uhhhh!" Gasping, he answered his own question, "Well, you damned well better be, because I am!"

A low throaty laugh reverberated the length of Heero's shaft as Duo guided his head up and down enjoying every tiny taste of the man he loved.

Already fully aroused, there was plenty to please both of them as he lapped the sweet liqueur that was essentially Heero. Sucking hard on the very tip, Duo had his lover writhing beneath him as he reached one finger down to his hidden entrance and eased it slowly in. Heero's breathing sped up as Duo felt him tighten then explode into his mouth filling him with a sweet feeling of unsurpassed joy as Heero's manhood pulsed several more times. Eventually, they lay happily together once more barely able to breathe.

"Koibito, my beautiful koibito," trembling fingers reached into the soft mass of gleaming hair. "Ai shiteru, Duo."

Lifting his head to gaze deeply into Heero's eyes, Duo smiled softly then kissed him deeply letting him taste his own seed within the warm confines of his mouth. "Ai shiteru, Heero. Now and forever." Holding back tears of joy, Heero returned the kiss with even greater passion.

Nuzzling his lover gently, Heero gave Duo the only warning he was going to give before lifting him bodily and placing him between his own out-stretched legs. Words were no longer needed between them as their spirits seemed to dance in unison. Smiling at Duo, he watched as his violet-eyed angel began to prepare him to be taken.

With an almost voyeuristic pleasure, he watched as Duo seductively sucked on his own fingers to wet them before slipping them into the warm welcoming depths of Heero's body. No one but Duo had ever been given this gift, the rare and precious gift of taking Heero Yuy instead of being taken.

Sadly, this had been done to him by others but never willingly, especially in the most recent events, and it amazed Duo that he was being encouraged to take him now for the first time in nearly a year. Weren't the memories of the dark and painful recent past going to ruin the pleasure of the present? As he started to ask if Heero really wanted this now, his lover seemed to read his mind as Heero gently took those wonderful fingers from Duo's mouth and placed them in his own. Duo moaned as he felt Heero's tongue caress the sensitive tips of his fingers, suckling and licking them arousing Duo even more.

Finally, satisfied that his lover knew precisely how much he wanted to share this with him, Heero released the fingers from his mouth with an audible "pop" and raised his knees to place his feet flat against the ground. Duo, still amazed at the glorious sight of his lover's nude body beneath him, slowly remembered what to do next and gently eased two moistened fingers past Heero's tight ring of muscle.

Feeling the small bumps of scar tissue, Duo's mind flashed with fear and he suddenly wanted to retract his fingers, but Heero was too quick for him. A restraining hand gently grasped his wrist, the thumb rubbing warm circles on the soft flesh there reassuring him how much this was wanted. Leaning down to kiss his soul-mate gently, Duo began making small thrusts with his fingers in and almost out of the tight ring bringing out tiny moans of pleasure as Heero's eyes slid shut and he relaxed under the pleasurable sensations. Encouraged, a third finger joined the first two, and even though there was some initial resistance to its addition, the muscles relaxed slowly as Heero concentrated on the pleasure Duo was giving him and forced the memories of the rape out of his mind.

Once ready, Duo withdrew his fingers carefully so as not to brush the one point within Heero which would bring him the greatest pleasure, he wanted that to happen only when he was deeply buried within him. Carefully and slowly, Duo guided the dripping tip of his erection into Heero's body. A gasp of pleasure escaped Heero's lips as Duo paused looking carefully to be certain he hadn't hurt his love.

Nodding encouragement, Heero wrapped his legs up around Duo's waist granting him even deeper entrance. Once more Duo began thrusting into the warmth beneath him feeling himself tightly restrained by walls of muscle which seemed to rhythmically clench and unclench around his shaft eliciting a low moan of desire from lips above as they descended on lips below. Locked in a passionate kiss, Duo slowly adjusted his body so he could slide part way out and then press slowly back in. As he sank once more into the warmth, he changed the angle just enough to hit that special spot and Heero arched off the ground in tortured joy. The act which had been so heinous and foul when it had been forced upon the young man now was sweeter than anything he could imagine, love was what made it that way for now he felt thoroughly and completely loved by the only one he himself had ever loved.

Both young men were moaning in pleasure as the sensations built and the speed increased as Duo moved in and out of his lover's body more forcefully until they were both near the very edge of bliss. Straining to keep his mind focused, a long-fingered hand reached between the two bodies and stroked the flesh trapped there. Within moments, a keening cry broke free of Heero's lips as he came in sweet abandon causing muscles to tighten around Duo's manhood sending him over the edge as well. Softly moaning Heero's name into his ear, the American filled his lover to overflowing with the warmth of his seed feeling as if it was the first time he had ever truly made love to anyone.

Collapsing together in a sweaty tangle of limbs, they pressed each other for tender kisses and long moments were spent simply laying in one another's arms.

Finally, they had no second thoughts, no more backward glances, no fears. The two, now pledged and fully sated in the joy of being together, fell asleep in the shade. Rare beauty and even more rare joy shared beneath the desert sun heralded the end of the darkness of the secrets which had followed them like evil harbingers. Now, they were whole once more.

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