WARNING: Very High Angst Lemon, Proceed With Caution, Kleenex Warning
[Sequel to Tragic Secrets; Book 6 of the "Secrets" Arc, Final Installment of arc]
Written: October & November, 2000
Cumulative Rating: NC-17
Pairings: (1x2/2x1) (3x4/4x3) (5+S)
Category: Angst, yaoi, AU
Cumulative Warnings: Angst, lemon, yaoi, sap, AU, OOC
Be Prepared: Kleenex Warnings!! also: avoid Colas
DISCLAIMERS: I don't own Gundam Wing or any other anime or TV characters I use here, just the ideas in this story and some
characters that are new are truly mine. Any reference to copyrighted material or trademarked goods should be considered an "homage"
(yeah, right!) Don't sue me, even the lawyers wouldn't enjoy it, except of course for the Ashe and Jojo characters!
NOTE: Timeframe---after the war has ended and the Gundams were destroyed. //yada, yada, yada// = inner thoughts
Silencing The Secrets
Hands flying, he had the man half undressed within seconds, his experience as a lock-pick came in handy from time to time, as Duo
relentlessly attacked all of Heero's weak points. Before the shocked Japanese youth could even respond, he found a chestnut haired
beauty slipping warm fingertips over his exposed chest and nimble lips pressed firmly at the juncture between neck and shoulder.
"Duo, what are you doing to me? Why are you doing this? Ahhhh… " Heero groaned deep in his throat as his pants became way too
"Hush, koibito, you talk too much." Duo crushed his mouth again with an insistent kiss then returned his attention elsewhere. Luckily,
Duo was already easing the constriction of Heero's jeans yet was tantalizing him there, too, with brushes of fingertips and pressure from
his own arousal following rapidly thereafter. Soon, to Heero's shocked pleasure, Duo, equally undressed, except for the thin white under
shirt he wore to conceal his scars, was straddling him and pressing down on his body eagerly. Lips and tongue tantalized Heero as he
stroked his sensitive nipples and slowly eased down to his groin; while he had distracted Heero with his erotic attentions, he quickly
slipped out of his khaki slacks and boxers entirely, leaving himself almost fully unclothed before Heero's amazed eyes. For his part, all
Heero could do was drink in the vision before him; pure beauty and highly aroused, the simple sight of Duo like this for the first time in so
long brought him to unexpected heights of desire. Duo had wrapped long fingers around Heero's now dripping erection and was
massaging it with all of the skill he had, finally bringing Heero's tip to his lips and licking, sucking, and teasing him further. Clearly, Duo
had only one thing in mind, completing the act of intimacy they had not shared in so very long.
He tried in vain to stop Duo one last time before this went too far, but Heero's heart was not in it at all. The simple truth was that he
wanted this more than anything. Moaning, he barely got a few words out. "Oh, koi, I've missed this so much. I thought I'd lost you
entirely! Ai shiteru, Duo, but are you certain?"
Duo answered without words as he guided the tip of Heero's arousal into his own body, gasping at the pain of a sudden dry entry,
especially considering how long it had been and how tight he was. Old injuries had left weakened areas which tore badly. Unable to
avoid it, a sharp cry of pain escaped Duo's lips as the intense agony almost overtook him and he had to fight to maintain consciousness
briefly. Somehow it never crossed his mind that he had experienced pain far greater than this during the war and the recovery from the
heart surgery, why was this affecting him so strongly? A warning was inherent in these failed thoughts, a warning that things were not as
Without proper preparation or lubrication, the heavy metallic scent of blood filled the confines of the car quickly.
Drowning in a dreamlike state of sheer euphoria, Heero knew that scent only too well and knew it meant trouble, yet could not stop
what was happening. But the pain and obvious injury didn't stop Duo, who simply hissed out the pain through his teeth, yet continued to
impale himself on Heero who was shocked beyond words yet spell-bound by Duo's actions. As he sank farther down onto him, Duo
began eagerly kissing and moaning into Heero's gaping mouth arousing him even more causing him to become larger stretching already
rent areas and increasing the warm flow of blood down onto Heero's thighs. What had been a small trickle rapidly increased to a steady
flow sending even greater agony through Duo's body which converted the pain into small spasms of the muscles sheathing Heero
increasing his arousal further; it was a vicious cycle of pain and pleasure for both.
Finally, with Heero's manhood fully embedded within him, Duo stopped to catch his breath. Part of his mind screamed for this to stop,
but the rest of himself told that little voice to shut the Hell up, it felt too good to stop now. Unable to speak, Heero's head fell backwards
against the headrest and tried to find a way to stop Duo from hurting himself further. Soon, however, irrational desire overrode Duo's
thinking and he lifted himself up from Heero's lap just enough to begin a rhythm of riding him up and down bringing a moan of sheer
tortured delight from Heero's lips.
//Why is he doing this?// Heero was barely coherent, but he knew something was very wrong about the suddenness of Duo's actions and
the heavy coppery scent as well as the feeling of Duo's blood coating his legs confirmed it. //He just told me he didn't want me and now
he's doing *this*?!? He's hurt and I should stop him, but how? Something's wrong here, very wrong! But, gods, it feels so good!// That
was Heero's last thought, though, as Duo sped up.
Almost screaming from the pain he felt, Duo continued to thrust himself upon Heero driving him deeper and deeper into his body,
reveling in the overwhelming sensations. Heero was nearing completion quickly because of a dozen reasons, not the least of which was
that this was the first time he'd had sex since the rape, something he refused to think about just then. He reached between their bodies
and struggled to maintain control long enough to bring Duo to completion before he did. Stroking the arousal trapped between them
excited both and threw them over the edge. Light danced before both of their eyes as warm liquid smeared their bellies and filled Duo at
nearly the same instant, bringing a shout of joy to Heero's lips and a whimper to Duo's.
Duo, spent, sprawled bonelessly against Heero's body, leaning his head against his shoulder and crying once more. Heero, worried,
withdrew gently from Duo and turned him a bit so he could hold him better; the sight of blood coating his thighs was frightening as was
the feeling of warm blood which continued to flow onto him at an alarming rate.
"Shh, koi, I've got you. Shh. It'll be all right." Heero didn't believe his own words, but concern and fear urged him to reassure his fey
lover just the same.
Shaking his head weakly, Duo tried to resist the warm reassurance Heero offered both physically and emotionally, but didn't have the
strength. "No. Oh, God in Heaven, no! No, no, no." He sobbed into Heero's shoulder as his body began to shake uncontrollably.
Confused, Heero softly asked, "What do you mean, 'no', Duo? What's wrong?"
"No, Heero," Duo sobbed brokenly, "I didn't plan to do that, really I didn't. I, well, I wanted to simply kiss you 'good-bye' and
apologize for being so confused, but somehow this happened instead!" He was in agony. "I didn't want this. I'm sure you didn't want this.
Oh, God, Heero, now *I've* raped both of us! What in Hell is wrong with me?!?" Clearly, he felt this was horribly wrong and he was
the only one to blame.
"Shh, you'd never deliberately hurt me, koi," Heero breathed into his ear, gently stroking the loose chestnut hairs that had freed
themselves from the braid. "It's okay, Duo, it's okay. You didn't 'rape' me, you gave me a *gift*. It was a wonderful gift, one I can't
begin to thank you enough for." He tightened both arms around the shivering naked youth in his lap hugging him fiercely, hoping his own
love would shine through in his actions since words were failing him so badly. Meanwhile his mind, now returning to clarity after the
release of passion, flew through a thousand concerns not the least of which was how badly damaged his lover had become pressing that
one act of intimacy so terribly far.
The shudders wracking Duo's body became more pronounced with each passing moment and he seemed incapable of speech. "Shh,
Duo, it's all right, really it is. Sometimes things just happen, right?" He lifted the boy's tear-streaked face and smiled.