Disclaimers: I don't own any of the Gundam Wing Universe. I'm not making any money off this story. It's written out of love, so please don't sue me.

Written: May-July, 2001
Overall Rating: NC-17
Overall Pairings: (3+5) (1x2/2x1) (?x5)NCS
Category: DARK Angst Yaoi/Shonen ai Friendship Rape-Memories Sap Lime AU-OOC
Enigma Story Categories: G-Boys High Adventure! & Gundam Nightmares
Warnings: DARK, angst, yaoi/shonen ai, friendship, remembrance of non-consensual sex, sap, lime, language, violence, fear, AU-OOC

Notes: The hidden gifts that Wufei discovered brought him a sense of joy at the time, but now shadows of a dark and painful past return and his world begins to shatter. Can Trowa find the strength to truly love him unconditionally and somehow keep the Chinese teen from being irrevocably destroyed?


Unconditional Gifts
Part 16

While Duo and Heero were discussing matters that would be key to the survival of the unique "family" that the Gundam pilots had become, another couple was confronting its own fears.

"Are you sure you want to try to sleep together, koi?" Trowa asked nervously. He'd been quite serious about his reservations about the two of them sharing the same bed where his first attempt at seduction had gone so tragically wrong that morning.

Wufei glanced at him from where he was carefully hanging up the white silks he'd worn earlier in the evening. Even though he didn't want to admit it, his pulse was racing as a variety of unpleasant memories kept resurfacing and the mundane task of getting ready for bed wasn't helping distract him as much as he'd hoped.

Forcing the panic back down, Wufei nodded. "Absolutely, Tro," he stated more firmly than he had dared to hope for. His confidence raised, he continued, "I have never been governed by fear and I will not allow it to rule our lives now."

This wasn't completely true, but the smaller boy felt like he needed to convince the taller one that he wasn't willing to give up on what the two of them had begun building together.

Trowa wisely kept his disbelief of the other's statement from his words as he said quietly, "Well, I'm glad you're willing to trust me so much, love. I wouldn't blame you for wanting a little personal space right now, though."

A soft snort answered this comment, as Wufei shook his head in negation, "Hmph! I had *more* than enough 'personal space' during the months before I came to stay with you and the others, angel! I have no need of it now."

"Ah," Trowa nodded in understanding, "You mean when you used to live alone in the mountains and all that stuff Master O insisted on?"

When his partner nodded in agreement, the HeavyArms pilot continued, "I've always wondered something about that, Fei. Do you happen to know precisely *why* he wanted to keep you away from the rest of us? Did he think we were bad influences or something?"

As the taller youth folded his own clothes up and slipped into sweatpants and a t-shirt for bed, Wufei answered conversationally, "I have no idea. In my culture, we were taught to never question our elders and occasionally old habits rear their heads at odd times so I never asked. Besides, he was my mentor and I trusted him even when his instructions didn't agree with my own preferences. At least, I used to feel that way."

"Why do you say it that way, Fei-kun?" Trowa asked in confusion.

Wufei merely shrugged, "Well, Tro, if he ever tries to tell me to stay away from you or the others again, I have no intention whatsoever of even considering it." A shy smile grew as he added, "Especially not *you*, angel!"

Forgetting to be nervous, Trowa walked over to his love with the intention of checking how well he was healing from the incident two weeks prior. He was pleased that Wufei had replaced the bandage around his ribs, but Trowa was still concerned by the raw pink scar tissue from where Quatre's heavy gold signet ring had sliced the Chinese boy's cheek open. The sutures that Duo had removed the day before had left behind a glaring reminder of the event and Trowa continued to feel a certain amount of guilt about all of it.

Turning towards the boy he loved, Wufei tried again to stifle the nervous beating of his heart and found the task to be easier with loving emerald eyes to focus on instead of the shadowy memories which plagued him. Wearing only a loose pair of shorts and an Ace bandage, the Chinese teen was surprised that he didn't feel more ill at ease or exposed than he did until he recalled the days on end he'd spent comfortably wrapped in the other boy's arms wearing little more than that.

A slight smile crossed Wufei's face as he felt long fingers gently caress his jawline as Trowa tilted his face up for a better look at the scar tissue.

"How is it doing?" Wufei asked in a hushed voice. No matter how disturbed the day had been, his soul rejoiced at the closeness to its mate and he felt perfectly centered by the feeling of the other teen's breath barely ghosting across his skin.

"Better," Trowa spoke in a soft voice, immediately forgetting to add that "better" was not good enough and that he wouldn't be happy with it until the scar faded entirely from view.

Deep inside, the slender teen felt the same odd vibration of warmth that Wufei had felt. Unexpectedly, Trowa found himself relaxed enough to wrap his hands around his lover's waist and draw him close to place a kiss on slightly trembling lips.

Wufei carefully leaned into the kiss, sealing their lips and hearts together in a single perfect moment.

Time seemed to stand still for the young couple, but as it began again the kiss broke and Wufei moved within his lover's arms to lean his head heavily against Trowa's chest.

"sweet gods, angel," Wufei murmured softly, "no matter what happens, never forget that i love you more than words can say."

One hand came up to cradle the back of Wufei's head as Trowa gently caressed him and answered from his heart in a voice barely above a whisper, "and i you, my love. we'll get through this, have faith."

"i shall try," the Chinese teen promised breathlessly even as he allowed Trowa to finally sense how exhausted he was by resting very nearly his full weight against him where they stood.

A soft chuckle was all the warning Wufei received before Trowa gave in to the overwhelming desire to simply sweep him up in his arms and carry him to the bed they would share. "Someone needs to get some more rest, I think," the taller teen remarked sweetly as he transferred his precious burden to the smooth cotton sheets.

"Only if you do, too," Wufei pretended to pout even as the first yawns forced their way past his lips when he slipped into the t-shirt he'd left for himself on the pillow. "Gomen," he apologized sheepishly.

"No problem," the slender youth smiled as he turned out the light, leaving them in a room lit only by the moonbeams that danced between the curtains. Trowa slid into bed and unhesitatingly wrapped both arms around his love and pulled Wufei close.

As they cuddled together, they each tried not to think too much about the day behind them or the trials ahead.


The night passed marvelously uneventfully for all five Gundam pilots. In two separate bedrooms, two couples slept limbs intertwined peacefully, and in a third, a single teen dreamt of a stunning man with long, pale-blond hair.

Upon awakening, Trowa rolled over to kiss his lover good morning only to discover that he was alone.

"Wufei?" He called out softly, wondering if the other boy might be down on the floor stretching as he sometimes did. The fact that the Chinese boy could move as silently as a shadow at times unnerved the taller teen, but Trowa was sleepy enough to assume he'd simply missed the other boy's actions.

There was no answer and when he sat up and looked around, Trowa realized that he was alone in the room after all. His instincts urged him to rise and go in search of the missing boy, but he reminded himself that they had promised to try to trust each other.

Running a hand through his overly long bangs, though, Trowa groaned a little and commented to himself, "Ugh, I'm disgusting! I never got around to a shower yesterday and now I feel totally grungy! No wonder Fei got up and left."

He chuckled a bit as he dug into his duffel bag and pulled out some shampoo and soap before heading down the hall to the bathroom that Duo had used the morning before in his attempts to assist Wufei.

As the water heated up, Trowa glanced out the window and smiled at the sun-washed but breezy beach that he hoped to go out and walk on with his love after getting some of the all-important coffee.

"Ah ha! Coffee! I'll bet *that's* what my dragon went off to find. Hmm, maybe he'll bring me a cup after my shower? That would be nice," Trowa smiled at the delightful images his mind offered him of the pair enjoying a quiet morning together even as he climbed into the steaming water, allowing his earlier worries to wash away.

Trowa Barton would come to regret failing to listen to his instincts about seeking out the missing Chinese youth. The sun would be slightly higher in the sky by the time that the HeavyArms pilot realized his error and it would take the considerable combined resources of himself and the other Gundam pilots to locate Chang Wufei.

More terrifying, however, would be the state in which they would find him but only time would reveal the true meaning of his absence.

Full Author's Notes to Run at Conclusion.

End Notes for Parts 14-16:

Gee, did anyone want a cliffhanger ending before I went away? I hope so since this is what you're getting here. The return to the Casa de Llama will be late next week and you can bet that Wufei will insist on my getting right back to posting as soon as possible, so have faith!

Then again, seeing as how *I'm* going to a North Carolina beach and the *boys* are at a North Carolina beach, I'll be thinking about this and I might even outline the next book for this series while I'm there. If I do, that'll help urge me to finish editing and posting this one so I can get started writing "Avenging Gifts", Book 4 of the "Gifts Arc".

[micro-spoiler warning that isn't really a spoiler, more like a promise]

Far more action and adventure oriented, "Avenging Gifts" should get those two blondes together finally as well as letting the reader see some of those weapons Heero was thinking about during Part 15 in use.

Now, one last time before I fall silent (and go look for dolphins!), allow me to roll out the red carpet for the "Gifts Arc Hall of Fame" honorees! Tonight's gratitude goes out to many wonderful people including: Danielle, Azzie, dhuron, bearliou, SkyLark (llama blows a kiss to the sweet flower girl to encourage her some more), Nazarri, Rubious, Ashkara, Shini-chan, probably several people who's mail got eaten by AOL, and, of course, my last best hope for sanity, Ryoko, my kitten who inspires me far more than you can imagine!

Well, that's it for me for awhile. Have a great week, feel free to send me ideas for that outline I doubt it will be terribly detailed if I even get it done at all.

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