The Winner Takes it All
The war had ended a little over a week ago. All five pilots were currently staying in Quatre’s estate to rest and
recover. Duo was about to pull his hair out, he did not know how to approach Heero. It didn’t help that Quatre was
always with him, he needed to talk to him alone. Finally one morning Duo had his chance, he walked out of his room
and padded his way to Heero’s. Opening the door, he peeked in and had to clamp down on the sob. Heero lied in his
bed, with Quatre at his side. He ran back to his room and started throwing things in his bag. //I thought he was
with Trowa// his mind kept repeating. He frantically moved from the dresser to his closet, grabbing only what he
needed, the tears fell down his cheeks. "I should’ve known.." He whispered hoarsely to the empty room before falling
to the floor and sobbing his loss. Duo sat alone in his room crying from his breaking heart, wishing he didn’t see
what he did.
"I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play"
On his way to the stairs he passed Heero’s room one more time, his hopes dwindled like a dying flame. Flickering
until nothing remained but the dwindling smoke. Duo opened the door once more, praying he was mistaken. He looked
at the scene, his heart shattered completely, with a muffled sob and closed the door and he ran down the stairs. He
was too upset to notice the envelop fall out of his pockets. His hand paused on the door-knob. He looked back once
more before opening and leaving his dreams and home behind.
"The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's his destiny"
Duo jumped into one of the cars and drove to the spaceport. He needed to get off of L4. //I hope they are happy//
Even though his heart felt like it was crushed, he truly wanted his beloved to be happy. Unbidden images of what
could have been filled his mind.
Strong hands rested on Duo’s shoulders. Eyes met, cobalt to violet, with an explosion of emotion, devotion, and
"I love you" Duo whispered.
Slowly they closed the distance between their lips...
"I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules"
He reached the spaceport and quickly bought a ticket for earth. As he boarded the shuttle, he stopped to look
back once more hoping he would be there to stop him. He wasn’t there, it wasn’t a dream Duo fought the tears and
went to his seat. After buckling his seat belt, Duo stared out the window, his reflection looked sorrowful and
"The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain."
Heero’s mind registered someone curled at his side, //Duo//, he smiled and opened his eyes to look at the love of his
heart. He couldn’t stop the loud gasp of shock, "Quatre?" Slowly his mind cleared and the previous night came back
to him. Quatre had come to him to talk. //We must have fallen asleep...// He got up from the bed and walked out into
the hall. He noticed Duo’s door was slightly open. Unable to stop himself he quietly walked over and peeked in. He
threw the door open in shock, "Duo?", he walked into the sparse room. //All his stuff is gone..// Heero ran out of the
room and started to go downstairs when an envelop caught his eyes.
With fumbling fingers he opened it and pulled out the sheet of paper. His hands began to tremble as he read.
"no..." he whispered dejectedly. He finally reached the end of the letter, two tears fell on the paper. "Why..?"
Realization struck him like a thunderbolt.
He collapsed in a pool of violently shaking ball of emotion. Everything rushing to the front and overpowering his
control. "Come back..."
Heero sat at the kitchen table, his whole demeanor changed the day Duo had left. No longer the cold emotionless
solider, he simply was a teenage boy looking for the one thing that could make him whole. He pulled the torn envelop
out of his pocket, pulling the single sheet of paper out. He unfolded it once again and read the contents, which still
after two weeks brought tears to his eyes.
Maybe one of these days I will actually gather the courage to tell you, or even give you this letter.
The war is over, but I find myself saddened by the fact. The reason is because we would go our separate
ways, I wouldn’t get to see you anymore. You might wonder why, it is simple. I have fallen in love with
you and couldn’t bear living my life alone. Time is running out I know, soon you will leave here. But I
wonder, would it be difficult for you to leave? Do you have any of these feelings for me? Are you just
terrified of telling me? My life and future happiness depends on this, I love you so much. It hurts
so much, I need you more than anything. I only pray it is meant to be...
"But tell me does he kiss
Like I wanted to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When he calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed"
Duo paused in his studies to look at the moon. He had always enjoyed looking at the moon. He was still not over
Heero, but he reasoned with time he might. "Who am I kidding, I’ll never get over him" He sighed again, then went
back to studying.
Their was a knock at his door, //who could that be//. He got up from the chair and went to open the door. "Hilde?
What is it?" Duo was surprised to find her at his door in the middle of the night. //I’ve only known her about two
"Duo, I was wondering if you wanted to join me for a cup of coffee. I need a break from studies." He thought it
over for a couple of minutes before agreeing to go with her. //I need to get out and stop brooding. They’re happy...//
"The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all"
The days passed by slowly, each more lonesome than the previous. Quatre saw how quiet and reserved Heero had
become over the last few days, they still could not find Duo. He knocked on Heero’s door before going in. "Heero, I
am so sorry. This is all my fault. If I had not have gone to your room to cry out my sorrows this would have never
happened. We will find him, this I promise you. Please don’t close yourself off." He walked up to the distraught
youth and gave him a hug, allowing the other to silently cry on his shoulder. //I will fix this mess for them both//
Quatre vowed silently.
"If only I..." Heero started to whisper, but he couldn’t continue past the lump in this throat.
He pulled back and looked at Quatre’s tearful eyes. "It’s not your fault Quatre, not alone. The blame is for us all.
When I find him..." He left the statement unfinished, the only thing to belied his stern voice was the humor in his
voice and eyes. //Just you wait till I find you Duo. You’re not gonna be able to walk for a week...//
"I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
But you see"
Quatre sat at his computer sorting through his latest searches. He was nearing the end of the list, his spirits
sinking once again. //Where are you...// Quatre reached the bottom of the list, his eyes nearly bulged out of their
sockets. "DUO!" He read the information and re-read it to be certain. Quickly he printed out the information.
//Found you finally. After three months. We have lots to talk about. Duo no baka! I could just strangle you if you
weren’t so damn important to us all.//
"Heero!! Get down here now, I’ve got great news!!"
Duo walked into his dorm room, slightly miffed. "Damn. I told her I wasn’t interested in a relationship." He was
referring to his night out with his ‘friend’. Obviously she wanted more out of him, but he wasn’t able to give. //Even
after three months I can’t move on. Why me?// He hung his head and took a deep breath.
Duo nearly jumped out of his skin, someone was knocking on his door. //Damn, I’m not deaf. Who the hell knocks
that hard, almost as if their...// He didn’t finish his thought, because once he opened the door his eyes met up with
a pair of cobalt eyes. Duo looked into those eyes and had one thought..//I’m in deep shit...//
Heero looked at Duo, noting he was red. //Must think he’s in trouble...well he is..// A sinister smirk made Duo more
nervous. "Heero, what are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be with Quatre and..."
Duo knew he was rambling but he didn’t know what else to do. He was in the middle of the sentence when he was
silenced by Heero, in a most delicious way. Gasping in shock, Duo opened his mouth to retort. Heero didn’t waste
the opportunity and slipped his tongue past the soft lips. A soft whimper from Duo caused Heero to pull back.
"Duo no baka."
Heero, unable to resist, kissed the pouting lips before he continued.
"You thought wrong. I love you and only you." Heero pushed Duo into the room and closed the door. "Do you have
any idea what the past three moths have been like?" He kissed his beloved again, softly and full of passion.
"Duo, you talk too much." Heero said before silencing him with another deep probing kiss. "I lost you once, but now
that I found you, I’m never letting go..."
‘The Winner Takes It All
The Winner Takes It All"