Disclaimers: GW is not mine and I don’t claim to own them. This fic is for entertainment only. "Possession" is not mine, it belongs to Sarah McLachlan.

Warnings: Angst!, Yaoi, Language?, dark themes? *i.e. emotional*
Pairings: 1+2/1X2

Notes: This is the third part of the ‘Otherside’ challenge. It was meant to be a one shot fic, but turned into this multi-part fic. This is actually part "A" of three...I am not sure how many parts there is. To understand and not get lost you must have read ‘Otherside’ Version 1 and ‘Facing Truth’.

"..." song lyrics

Otherside - Version 1

"Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide, Voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time, The night is my companion and solitude my guide, Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied,"

Duo stared out the window into the starless night sky, two weeks had passed since he was released from the hospital. He sighed dejectedly again, the memories still lingering in his mind, although his body was on the road to recovery his mind and heart were far from it. //Where to I go from here// He asked himself while looking at his wrists, the scars that would forever remind him of his failed attempt. //Why did he have to go away so suddenly// His mind drifted from reality to a place where Heero was with him, the sadness and darkness banished from the pure love.

"And I would be the one to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I'll take your breath away and after I'd wipe away the tears, Just close your eyes dear"

Duo was dragged out of his fantasy by the telephone ringing. He ignored it as usual and crawled into the bed. He really did not feel like doing anything but sleeping. He would be the first one to admit he was in depression, and his only escape from the pain was taken away by his promise to Heero.


"Promise me you will never try and kill yourself. Promise me"

"I promise Heero" ~~~~~~

‘If he only knew how hard it is to keep that promise’ He closed his eyes against the tears that threatened to fall again. Ever since he was little, people were always leaving him alone, didn’t they know how much the loneliness was slowly gutting him of his fragile soul? He sobbed into the unforgiving pillow, alone, Heero had left him alone like all the others.

"Through this world I've stumbled so many times betrayed, Trying to find an honest word, to find the truth enslaved, Oh you speak to me in riddles and you speak to me in rhymes My body aches to breathe your breath, you words keep me alive"

Finally Duo had exhausted himself into a fretful slumber, visions and night terrors haunted his mind throughout the night. He curled into a fetal position on the bed. He reached out in his troubled sleep, his hand looking for Heero.

"And I would be the one to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I'll take your breath away and after I'd wipe away the tears, Just close your eyes dear"

He bolted up from the bed, chest panting, eyes wild with panic. He tried to remember it was only a dream, they couldn’t hurt him anymore. He was safe, wasn’t he? Duo brought his knees up to his chest, he nervously looked around the foreign room. Looking for anything to help him get through the night, his eyes fell onto a picture on the dresser. It was of Heero and himself. He got out of the bed to retrieve the photo and clutched it to his chest. Pulling the covers over himself he tried to fall asleep.

"Into this night I wander, it's morning that I dread, Another day of knowing of the path I fear to tread, Oh into the sea of waking dreams I follow without pride, Nothing stands between us here and I won't be denied,"

His eyes started to close, sleep was slowly taking him back into her embrace. He heard the bedroom door open and someone walking over to the bed. His tired mind realized it was Heero, the bed dipped when he got under the covers. Duo felt safe once again, once he was pulled into the firm embrace. "heero.." he whispered, eyelids drooping shut. "It’s okay Duo, go to sleep. I’m here now" His kissed the warm forehead before going to sleep, holding his precious jewel ever so close to his body.

"And I would be the one to hold you down, kiss you so hard, I'll take your breath away and after I'd wipe away the tears, Just close your eyes dear... "

on to part 4: fear

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