Confusion of the Heart
//"I don't have something to smile about."//
Duo cursed as he attacked the OZ ships. Instead of seeing Heero's
smirk and mocking smile as he slice through each ship, the Deathscythe
pilot found himself replaying all of Hitoe's words since they first
//"Thank you very much. I've never been this happy before."//
Hitoe's words kept echoing in his mind as he cut down some ships in
//"I'm sorry Duo.."//
Duo gasped as one ship managed to attack his back. He turned and
sliced the ship with his scythe.
//"You love my face."//
"Damn you, Yuy!" Duo cried out and controlled Deathscythe wildly,
sending all the ships in his way to the bottom of ocean.
// "I'm not an innocent angel like you think I'm, Duo."//
The Deathscythe moved as efficient as ever, destroying more and more
//"It's okay if you don't want to meet me again. I understand
Finally the last ship had been destroyed. Duo panted inside
Deathscythe. No matter what he did, the image of a smiling Hitoe kept
coming back into his mind. Her soft voice, her happy expression, and
the sensation when he kissed those soft lips. Duo reminded himself
that it was Heero all the time, but still he found he missed his
Hitoe. And it had only been two days since his departure.
//"You don't hate me?" //.................
Duo stared out to the ocean far away. He was confused.........and
angry....All Hitoe's words were true.....
After completing his mission on the sixth day, Duo finally flew
Deathscythe back to the hidden cave near the safe house. He still
wasn't sure about what to do with a certain Japanese pilot. He had
spent six days inside Deathscythe, rarely eating or sleeping. All he
could think was Hitoe and Hitoe. Her words kept ringing, repeating
itself like a litany inside his mind.
It was past midnight when he arrived at the safe house. Duo trotted up
to his room. Heero's room. Duo drew his breath, unsure of what to do.
He couldn't predict what the Japanese pilot's reaction would be once
he saw him. Slowly, he opened the door and walked in.
Duo held his breath as he acknowledged Heero lying on the bed,
sleeping. Still confused about his own feelings, Duo approached the
sleeping boy. He stood next to the bed and stared at the sleeping
figure wrapped and covered from the neck down by a blanket. Heero's
face was pale under the moonlight that fell from the window. He was
breathing regularly through his pointed nose. Duo ran his eyes over
the Japanese pilot's face. How much he missed this face, those soft
lips, and the delicate cheeks he used to caress tenderly. He missed
The braided pilot unconsciously raised his hand and touched the
sleeping boy's cheek. Duo watched the face. It was Hitoe's. Hitoe's
nose, Hitoe lips, Hitoe's chin, Hitoe's eyes. This was his Hitoe. The
blue eyes opened slowly as he caressed the cheek and blinked in
confusion at him. How he missed those beautiful eyes. His fingers
trailed from the soft cheek to the lips. They were opened slightly as
the owner seemed confused and surprised at Duo's action.
Duo felt drawn into those blue eyes as he leaned down and captured the
delicate lips, replacing his fingers. Ah, Hitoe, his Hitoe. How he
missed tasting her. Those lips opened as Duo ran his tongue on them,
granting him access. Hitoe always let him inside, let him claim and
tease the shy tongue inside and this time was no exception either. Duo
sighed in satisfaction as he explored the moist cavern. He sucked and
licked every inch of it, savoring the sensation he had missed for six
When he felt his lungs were on fire, Duo broke the kiss and stared at
the lovely face. Those blue eyes were still staring at him in
confusion and disbelief as a hand came up and touched Duo's face, as
if trying to convince the owner that this wasn't a dream. The hand
caressed Duo's cheek slowly and Duo leaned into the caress, closing
Then a voice came up, breaking the serene moment they shared. "Duo..."
The voice....it was low and heavy. Hitoe's voice was lighter than
this. It wasn't Hitoe's voice! Duo's eyes snapped open. His mind
finally registered it was Heero that he kissed. It had always been
Heero. Duo felt the anger rose inside him again. He had fallen into
Heero's game again. He had kissed Heero again despite all the words he
had said before he left the safe house. And being like a whore he was,
Heero accepted his kiss again, opening his greedy mouth easily. The
anger became stronger as Duo imagined the mocking smirk Heero would
give him. A triumphant smirk. All right then if Heero wanted to play,
he would play.
Duo caught the hand on his cheek and pinned it on the bed at the same
level with Heero's head. He dropped his weight, sitting on Heero's
torso and pinning the boy. "You like to be kissed, don't you whore?"
"Duo?" The voice sounded confused at the sudden change.
"How many men had fallen into your game, slut? I bet you open your
mouth for them too. Well, if you want a kiss, I'll give you a kiss you
deserve, whore." Duo leaned down and ravished the Japanese pilot's
lips. This time there was no gentleness in the kiss. It was a kiss
that was meant to hurt, to inflict pain. Duo poured all of his anger
into the kiss, biting down on every surface he met with his teeth and
tasting the sweet metallic blood. He thrust his tongue roughly into
Heero's mouth, sucking and licking it ferociously as if wanting to
draw all the air out of the Japanese boy. Duo even bit the tongue that
tried to push his tongue away.
"Hmmph.." Duo felt Heero try to push him away with his free hand and
turn his head to the side to avoid his kiss. This only resulted in
angering him more. Breaking the kiss, Duo raised his hand and brought
it down fast to meet Heero's left cheek. The resounding smack broke
into the silence of the night.
Duo panted; his anger had blinded him. But he was shocked when he
heard the loud smack echoing throughout the room. He could feel his
hand throb in pain from the slap and slowly his anger subsided.
Finally, he realized what he had done once his eyes fell on Heero's
red cheek. He ran his eyes to check the Japanese boy's condition. His
head had been thrown to the side by the force of the blow. Heero's
eyes were wide open but didn't focus to any certain points. Then, Duo
saw the bleeding and tortured lips.
The American pilot felt dizzy looking at the results of his anger. He
never thought he would attack and ravish his partner like this. And
what worried him the most was that Heero wasn't moving. He lay as
still as a rock. One of the Japanese pilot's hands was still pinned by
one of his, while the other one lay lifelessly by the side of his
pinned body. Slowly, Duo released the pinned hand and moved his weight
off of Heero to sit on the bed.
Heero still didn't move. The Japanese boy seemed to be afraid to move,
like he would be hurt again if he moved. For the first time in his
life, Duo felt lost. He didn't know what to do or what to say. Then
his eyes caught something glint on Heero's chest. Their struggling had
shoved the blanket down and revealed the bare chest of the Japanese
pilot. Duo stared at the shimmering item. It was his cross.
Duo looked back at the Japanese pilot's face and was stabbed with
guilt when he noticed the pain and hurt held within those beautiful
eyes. His head throbbed painfully as the dizziness attacked him and
his body couldn't stand the lack of sleep and food any longer. Duo
fell forward and heard Hitoe's voice one last time before he blacked
//"Love most?" //
The Japanese pilot watched as his American partner rested uneasily on
his bed, tossing and turning every few minutes. He raised his hand and
touched his own cheek, feeling the pain there. His eyes kept on the
restlessly figure on the bed, watching him long after coming to a
Dark.....and hot...where was he? Duo opened his eyes and saw walls of
fire in front of him. He ran away, trying to escape the hot walls, but
the walls seemed to follow him wherever he went. He ran and ran, never
stopping. Then he came to a dead end. Duo turned and saw the walls
getting closer and felt his sweat sliding down rapidly over his body
as his surrounding became hotter.
Then he felt something cold on his forehead. He looked up and saw a
boy with blue eyes extending his hand. Duo quickly caught the hand and
felt his body being pulled up, leaving the heated environment. The boy
pushed him toward a light. As he entered the light, Duo felt his hand
being released. He looked back and saw the boy standing in the dark,
smiling sadly. Duo extended his hand but the boy shook his head. As
the light engulfed him, Duo heard the boy uttering one word.